date tomorrow, but now I’m really freaking out :(

[bunny_brownie9]

I wasn't able to get a good AE from the doctor today, and I've been saying 'goodbye' to friends (yet some are onto me and are suspicious). I will do it without AE, but it would've helped.

I feel that there's so much to do and I want to leave them as little to worry about/do as possible, which means I need to clean and tidy and have notes written and done and everything sorted.

I feel freaked out already and I just don't know what to do. I think I'm getting in my head too much about this but I'm sure that as the day gets nearer (tomorrow), it feels more 'real'? I worry I'll send messages and go places to do it but then SI will kick in. I wish I was easier to leave this stupid planet

 

[mortuarymary]

Is there an AE you can buy over the counter?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you eventually find the peace you search for, I also really wish it's easier to die.

 

[bunny_brownie9]

Is there an AE you can buy over the counter?

I asked and they didn't really say anything, but got cyclizine

 

[mortuarymary]

I asked and they didn't really say anything, but got cyclizine

Buy it over the counter in the uk. Seemed to work on me when I had sickness bug

 

[bunny_brownie9]

Buy it over the counter in the uk. Seemed to work on me when I had sickness bug

buy which one?

 

[mortuarymary]

buy which one?

cyclizine

 

[bunny_brownie9]

cyclizine

I got given to today but after reading, people are saying it won't do a single thing because it doesn't work in the brain the same way that meto does (or similar)

 

[rozeske]

Don't be hard on yourself, dying is not easy and beating SI is even harder. I would advice sending scheduled messages so you can cancel them if you decide to abort your plan. OTC antiemetics are not recommended as they are intended for minor motion sickness and the like, not global toxicity.
I wish you luck in your plans and I hope you can find your peace

 

[mortuarymary]

Ok, in the UK you can buy it in the supermarket, so it's not mega strong. You may have to take more than prescribed but it won't kill you.
It's an antihistamine here in the uk. Used a lot for hayfever etc. Would I trust it with SN, I can't say, it's an anti sickness so should work but won't have the strength of Meto

 

[bunny_brownie9]

Don't be hard on yourself, dying is not easy and beating SI is even harder. I would advice sending scheduled messages so you can cancel them if you decide to abort your plan. OTC antiemetics are not recommended as they are intended for minor motion sickness and the like, not global toxicity.
I wish you luck in your plans and I hope you can find your peace

I'll have to figure out how to send delayed messages on iMessage so thank you. I'm just going to have to risk it without antiemetics but nothing I can do right now. I wish it wasn't to hard but I keep trying to remind myself that other people have beat SI, so can I

 

[Aim]

I'll have to figure out how to send delayed messages on iMessage so thank you. I'm just going to have to risk it without antiemetics but nothing I can do right now. I wish it wasn't to hard but I keep trying to remind myself that other people have beat SI, so can I

Believe in you and we're here, so your not alone

 

[rozeske]

I'll have to figure out how to send delayed messages on iMessage so thank you. I'm just going to have to risk it without antiemetics but nothing I can do right now. I wish it wasn't to hard but I keep trying to remind myself that other people have beat SI, so can I

If you can manage to have a doctor prescribe them to you it would be better even if you have to postpone your date. But if there is no way for you to get them nothing to be done i guess. There seem to be others who managed to succeed without them, though it's hard to know for sure.

 

[bunny_brownie9]

If you can manage to have a doctor prescribe them to you it would be better even if you have to postpone your date. But if there is no way for you to get them nothing to be done i guess. There seem to be others who managed to succeed without them, though it's hard to know for sure.

I could only get one to give me cyclizine

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best with your plan. May you find peace & freedom. Good luck!

 

[rozeske]

I could only get one to give me cyclizine

I don't have much knowhow on meds so hopefully someone else will chime in. But I would think something will be better than nothing?...I don't know

 

[bunny_brownie9]

Don't be hard on yourself, dying is not easy and beating SI is even harder. I would advice sending scheduled messages so you can cancel them if you decide to abort your plan. OTC antiemetics are not recommended as they are intended for minor motion sickness and the like, not global toxicity.
I wish you luck in your plans and I hope you can find your peace

annoying thing is you can't send a delayed message on iPhone without using shortcuts, but then it'll repeat at that time indefinitely! which is not what I want.

 

[rozeske]

annoying thing is you can't send a delayed message on iPhone without using shortcuts, but then it'll repeat at that time indefinitely! which is not what I want.

Sorry also not sure in this area, but can you send delayed email? I think it's possible to delay emails.

 

[eLdus]

Hi @bunny_brownie9, I can relate to all this so much, as I'm in much the same situation as you - trying to tie everything up as much as possible, but feeling anxious and overwhelmed as I get towards the time.
I had exactly the same thought as @rozeske .....are you able to schedule an email instead? It's another option if you can't do the text thing.

 

[bunny_brownie9]

Hi @bunny_brownie9, I can relate to all this so much, as I'm in much the same situation as you - trying to tie everything up as much as possible, but feeling anxious and overwhelmed as I get towards the time.
I had exactly the same thought as @rozeske .....are you able to schedule an email instead? It's another option if you can't do the text thing.

me too, and once something is done I keep remembering something else that I should/need to do. I think I just need to accept that I won't be able to sort out everything that I need to, but that's just the way it is.

I'm going to try with an email although I obviously would prefer texts, but email should work!

 

[TimetoGo!]

Isn't Domperidone good for SN method?

I got that online really easy. (Although for something else not SN method)

Anyone used Domperidone?

 

[Princess_Kitty]

I wish you the best of luck. I hope you're able to find peace and comfort

 

[inaminute]

If you can manage to have a doctor prescribe them to you it would be better even if you have to postpone your date. But if there is no way for you to get them nothing to be done i guess. There seem to be others who managed to succeed without them, though it's hard to know for sure.

I got my AE from an online pharmacy in Manchester via mail just said was for travel sickness no GP involved and now in England and Wales pharmacies can prescribe certain meds

 

[Katdogg]

I'm new to this forum. Can I ask why it has to be tomorrow? Could you allow yourself enough time to tie up your loose ends and not feel pressured by a deadline? I hope you can find peace of mind .

 

[bunny_brownie9]

I'm new to this forum. Can I ask why it has to be tomorrow? Could you allow yourself enough time to tie up your loose ends and not feel pressured by a deadline? I hope you can find peace of mind .

I suppose it doesn't have to be tomorrow, but it's the date I've had in mind for a while. I just can't keep putting it off.

 

[Katdogg]

I respect your right to want to end it all. I do not know your circumstances.

I attempted suicide years ago and failed. I have lived an entire lifetime since then.

Do you still have fleeting moments of happiness at all? A delicious slice of pizza? A loving pet that craves your affection? A new piece of music that you discovered?

I don't want to offend you with the tiny scraps of hope that keep me going. I am only reaching out because we are all struggling.

 

[bunny_brownie9]

I respect your right to want to end it all. I do not know your circumstances.

I attempted suicide years ago and failed. I have lived an entire lifetime since then.

Do you still have fleeting moments of happiness at all? A delicious slice of pizza? A loving pet that craves your affection? A new piece of music that you discovered?

I don't want to offend you with the tiny scraps of hope that keep me going. I am only reaching out because we are all struggling.

I'm not sure about happiness, but definitely more 'enjoyable' moments. Namely music.

I just feel that even with those moments, I still have to live with my brain and how completely broken I feel. You aren't offending at all, and I actually appreciate your kind words :)

 

[Katdogg]

We are our own worst enemy sometimes. Its like we are fighting against ourselves and it isn't fair because I know all my weaknesses and can tear myself down easily if I choose to. Even broken people have worth.

I hope you can find the peace you are looking for. Here ... or in the void.

In the meantime be kind to yourself