turbomightbegone
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- Nov 13, 2023
- 161
I fucking hate this stupid fucking bs
I always tell myself that my cbt date will be at the end of the year. yet every single time I get to the end of the year I chicken out and switch to next year
I fucking hate myself for letting myself get to each birthday every single fucking year of this depressing choking life
god im such a fucking coward holy shit
why the fuck cant I just throw myself off a bridge? why cant I go ahead and hang myself?
the thoughts of mutilating everyone around me (consisting of my family) only grow stronger each day. it's morally wrong but I wish I could act on it. I wish I could show what they did to me
I wish they'd allow me to go outside and let me get a PROPER FUCKING DIAGNOSIS for my mentally ill ass because im tired of self-diagnosing myself
I'm tired of living this stupid imprisoned life where im forced to animate and draw so that my family can work me like a stupid straw puppet
I want to be able to actually set a date and act upon it
I want to fucking die
I always tell myself that my cbt date will be at the end of the year. yet every single time I get to the end of the year I chicken out and switch to next year
I fucking hate myself for letting myself get to each birthday every single fucking year of this depressing choking life
god im such a fucking coward holy shit
why the fuck cant I just throw myself off a bridge? why cant I go ahead and hang myself?
the thoughts of mutilating everyone around me (consisting of my family) only grow stronger each day. it's morally wrong but I wish I could act on it. I wish I could show what they did to me
I wish they'd allow me to go outside and let me get a PROPER FUCKING DIAGNOSIS for my mentally ill ass because im tired of self-diagnosing myself
I'm tired of living this stupid imprisoned life where im forced to animate and draw so that my family can work me like a stupid straw puppet
I want to be able to actually set a date and act upon it
I want to fucking die
