Venting Darkover venting thread

[Darkover]

for one thing to suffer is too much for me to bear if one has to die we should all die together
compassion in not wanting anyone to suffer or die but we all do
what i came to realize is i'll never have the kind of life i would want to live this place is just to shit for that
the human species is a fucking shithole
life in this place is not even close to being worth coming alive for
all life does is cause harm in one form or another
i wouldn't want to be enslaved in this awful shit
this is no kind of life or place i would ever want to be alive in
Is there anything in this world really worth dying for?
The short answer: Not really.
is there anything in this universe worth coming alive for

people don't care for people they only care about what they can get from you, They are there for what they get out of you
i wouldn't ever trust another human being with my happiness they will forsaken you they can't be trusted

i'm not happy with the way i was raised it's like my family just let me down my whole life never took me to the dentist

why i would never come alive here to have everything i ever worked for all taken away from me

you can make a machine enjoy doing anything even eating shit don't make it right

no one ever loved me or cared for me here why would i want to be here

life's a scam because it tricks you into believing it's better than it is

i couldn't look after myself start smoking and taking weed aged 12, in year 7 of school i dropped out played PlayStation and smoked weed everyday would by cheap cigarettes and sell them at school to earn money to buy weed i would only go to school in the morning and afternoon to sign in and left

when times were simpler and I had hope for the future.

there should just be nothing for all time since reality is hell

whatever created this universe should of never done it

nobody gives a shit for anyone here
human existence is a complete disaster

whatever created this universe shouldn't be allowed to it's immoral

life such shit quality everything breakdown or doesn't work properly

you can't even listen to music with headphones without succumbing to an injury

 

[Darkover]

life is awful shit in this shitty horrible place so much so i never choose to come alive here
nobody cares if they did they just destroy every living thing because life in this place is hell
life in all its current form is abomination
nobody cares until it happens to them

 

[Darkover]

i'm in bad shape physically and mentally got all kind of pain in my brain and body my heart keeps hurting me sporadically for around 6 months now both my ears are badly damaged due to prolonged headphone use got tinnitus in both ears i can here them click and creak throughout the day it feels like there is a vice around my brain squeezing it, anyway i'm unable to sleep for very long without weed and i've got none for 4 days i usually take it everyday to help me feel more comfortable and to relax i can't concentrate for very long i don't watch tv or movies very rarely i watch anything i mostly just listen to music all day every day because i can't concentrate

 

[Darkover]

after everything my family have put me through i couldn't care any less
lucky for me i am psychopath and don't care about life in this evil place
i just wish that there was nothing for all time instead of something especially because so much cruelty in the animal kingdom
i would never let some like life on this planet ever exist it just to cruel to let it exist

 

[Darkover]

i've got nothing left to live for just wish i could switch this machine off for all time but i've not got anything to switch the machine off with i hate how i am trapped here in this dire situation nobody will ever care for me, spent my whole life with shitty people maybe all humans are shitty to me maybe i just don't like the human species

to think humans are supposed to be a loving and caring people this couldn't be any further away from the truth
every species is abomination, if you really cared from someone no body would ever bring another thing alive here
in this hellhole

 

[Darkover]

only got 5 hours sleep feel like shit wish i could sleep for another 5 hours

i feel sick from stress i hate these shitty machines i've just wanted to die for the last 8 years everyday
not a day gone by in that time i haven't wanted to die

is this it is this all the universe does is torture people to death

 

[Darkover]

got 3 hours sleep just wish i could sleep

what i came to realize is you never be immortal in this place, from car crashes to plane accidents, sailing accidents, millions of ways you can die can't even listen to music with headphones without getting damaged

 

[Darkover]

don't want to be alive just wish these machines came with a off switch, i'd never choose to come alive

i would of kill my self 20 years ago i would save my self from living out misery here

words can't explain how disappointed i am with how my life went here it wrong from the very start coming from broken home

 

[Darkover]

got 2 and half hours sleep
i hate being alive here just wish i would die in my sleep

 

[Darkover]

got 5 hours sleep
my mind aches wish i could solve the pain

 

[Darkover]

enslaved in awful shit and made powerless and helpless in an shithole and an a hellhole enslaved in a fragile delicate machine and forced to live out your misery here i would never ever want to exist not under any circumstance lifes just to shit to be desired being enslaved in this awful shit makes life absolutely shit why would anyone ever want to exist like this unless you get everything you ever needed or wanted there is no point to life here in just a few years it will be all over with, life i hope to never see you ever again, just forced to live out your misery here in this shithole and hellhole what did we ever do to deserve this awful treatment and this terrible horrible lifetime absolutely nothing its just a uncaring universe we don't deserve this awful shitty treatment just one wish nothing for all time

 

[Darkover]

they called you complicated didn't they too much too intense too real you felt it in the way they pulled away the way their smiles turned uneasy when you started talking about things that actually mattered they didn't want real conversation they didn't want real emotion they wanted surface level comfortable safe you were too much because you dared to feel deeply to question to challenge you were too much because you refused to wear the mask that everyone else seemed to fit into so perfectly they left
because you weren't willing to play the game the game where everyone pretends to be okay where everyone keeps their fears and doubts hidden behind fake Smiles where everyone walks around in a trance doing what's expected saying what's acceptable fitting neatly into the mold Society has made for them you broke the mold you challenged the Norms you made them question everything they thought was certain and that made them uncomfortable but here's the truth Comfort is easy it's predictable it's what most people choose because stepping
out of it means exposing yourself to the unknown to the parts of life that can't be controlled or neatly explained you chose discomfort you chose growth you chose to be yourself even when it wasn't easy even when it meant losing people along the way they wanted you to be like everyone else to keep your head down to say the right things to blend in but blending in was never what you were meant for you were born to stand out you were born to question to feel to experience life in a way that isn't
watered down that isn't fake and that's why they couldn't handle you because your existence your way of being reminded them of everything they were afraid to confront in themselves they didn't want real because real is messy real isn't always pretty or polished real is tears and laughter Darkness and Light strength and vulnerability real is feeling everything from the highest highs to the lowest lows and that kind of authenticity is terrifying for people who have spent their entire lives running from their
own truth they left because you were too real but what they didn't realize is that real is powerful real is what changes things real is what makes people stop what makes people feel what makes people think and the world needs more of that the world needs more people like you people who are willing to be real who are willing to take off the mask and live life fully unapologetically without hiding in a world full of fake Smiles you chose to be genuine in a world that teaches people to hide their flaws you
chose to embrace them you chose to be open to let people see the parts of you that are not perfect that are not polished that are still growing you chose to be real even when it meant standing alone and that is where your strength lies not in the people who left but in your refusal to become something you're not just to keep them around they left but you stay true to yourself you refuse to compromise refuse to shrink yourself to make them comfortable you understood something they never did that
the only way to truly live is to be who you are without apology without fear without shame you understood that true connection true love true fulfillment only come when you are living in your truth when you are being authentically unapologetically you they called you too sensitive too intense too much but what they really meant was that they weren't ready for someone who felt things deeply who cared about things that mattered who wasn't willing to pretend they wanted you to be simple predictable
easy they wanted you to fit into their narrow definition of what is acceptable but you were never meant to fit in You Were Meant to Break boundaries to challenge the status quo to make people see the truth they are too afraid to face and yes it's hard it's hard to be real in a world that wants you to be fake it's hard to be yourself when everyone else is is telling you who you should be it's hard to stand tall in your truth when the people around you are trying to bring you down trying to make you doubt yourself trying to make
you believe that there's something wrong with you for simply being who you are but here's the truth there is nothing wrong with you there has never been anything wrong with you you were not made to fit into their boxes to play by their rules to wear the mask they wanted you to wear you were made to be real to be true true to be you you were made to stand out to shine to live a life that is authentic and Unapologetic the people who left you were never meant to be part of your journey they were never meant to see
your greatness to witness the incredible things you are capable of because they couldn't handle the truth of who you are they couldn't handle the light that shines within you the light that refuses to be dimmed the light that burns so brightly it makes the darkness in them uncomfortable they left but their leaving did not break you it set you free it set you free from the need to prove yourself to people who were never going to understand who were never going to accept you for who you are it set you
free to find the people who do understand who do accept who do love you not for the version of you that is easy or convenient but for the version of you that is real that is flawed that is beautifully Perfectly Imperfect you were too real for them and that's why they walked away but you are not here to be liked by everyone you are not here to fit in to be accepted by people who are afraid of the truth you are here to live in your power to embrace your truth to be unapologetically yourself and to
inspire others to do the same they left because they couldn't see the beauty in your authenticity but that's not your loss it's theirs because they missed out on someone who is real someone who is genuine someone who is capable of feeling and experiencing life in a way that is rare and beautiful they missed out on the depth the passion the authenticity that makes you who you are and now you are free free to live without the weight of their expectations without the burden of their judgment without the need to fit into their
narrow definitions of who you should be you are free to be yourself fully and completely without apology you are free to embrace your truth to live in your authenticity to be real in a world that desperately needs more people who are willing to be and yes you will find your people the ones who don't want you to hide the ones who don't want you to be smaller to be quieter to be easier you will find the people who love you for your your intensity for your passion for your sensitivity you will find the ones who
see the beauty in your authenticity who are inspired by your courage to be real you will find the ones who are not afraid of the truth who are not afraid of the depth who are not afraid of you until then keep being you keep being real keep showing the world who you are even when it's hard even when it's lonely even when it feels like no one understands because your realness is your power it is the thing that sets you apart the thing that makes you different the thing that makes you exactly who you
are meant to be they couldn't handle your truth but that doesn't mean you should hide it it means you should shine even brighter be even more unapologetically yourself because that's what the world needs the world needs people who are willing to be real even when it's not easy even when it's not popular even when it means standing alone and remember this you are enough you have always been enough not because you fit in not because you make everyone comfortable not because you are perfect but because you are you because you are
real because you are honest because you are willing to be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else you were too real for them and that is not something to be ashamed of that is something to be proud of it means that you are living your truth that you are refusing to conform that you are choosing to be exactly who you are meant to be it means that you are strong enough to be real even when others are too afraid to do the same so let them go let the ones who cannot
handle your truth find others who are willing to pretend let them go and trust that the right people the ones who see you who understand understand you who love you for exactly who you are they are out there and they will find you they will love you not despite your authenticity but because of it ladies and gents thank you for watching if this message touched your heart if it reminded you of your own strength share it share it with someone who needs to hear that being real being honest being yourself is the most
powerful thing you can be keep standing tall in your truth keep living in your authenticity and remember you are enough always your realness is your power and it is what will change everything

 

[Darkover]

you died didn't you not physically no but something inside of you something vital something hopeful it's gone there was a moment when you realized that everything you thought you knew everything you believed in everything you trusted it was all shattered in that moment something inside of you died maybe it was betrayal maybe it was failure maybe it was years of trying struggling sacrificing only to watch it all fall apart you gave everything you had didn't you you gave your heart your soul your time your
energy your hope only to be left with nothing but disappointment and regret you were loyal to people who weren't loyal to you you believed in people who didn't deserve your belief you trusted those who only used you

 

[Darkover]

life you have brought me nothing but misery and suffering and despair
life is just nothing, but suffering, death, despair and unfairness? ... why bother living when life is nothing but endless struggle and misery? ·.

 

[Darkover]

what a horrible shitty machine to be alive in
this place is simply just shit so much so i would never choose to be alive here
the average human being is as dumb as shit
this place simply is a shithole in all it's forms
the human species is a sack of shit because there enslaved in awful shit have you ever been treated so appallingly
these machines are just to shit to be alive in
i would never choose to come alive here enslaved in this awful shit
enslaved in awful shit and made to live out your misery in a shithole and hellhole
don't ever build me up to break me down
i wouldn't put up with this shitty place and the shitty people
i wouldn't ever choose to come alive here enslaved in awful shit
nearly suffered for a decade in this country everyday for the last 8 fucking years
such is the extent to which we've been enslaved i am not allowed to leave
i wouldn't live out my misery here i would just leave
the mistake is ever being fucking born in the first place
what a shitty horrible world full with shitty horrible people
this place has no lasting good qualities at all
life isn't even slightly worth coming alive for and there certainly nothing here worth dying for
shitty horrible lives and in a shitty horrible place
why fucking bring us alive here you stupid dumb fucking machines
i fucking hate this place forever bring me alive to live out my misery here
what a shitty horrible world enslaved in awful shit with shitty horrible people
nothing to live for here enslave in this awful shit in this shit hole and hellhole
on one here would ever care for me how i would want to be care for i don't think any human is capable of it
i hate life the universe everything else for ever bring me alive here

 

[Darkover]

to never be would be the miracle such is the poor quality of life
nothing to live for here in this shithole and hellhole
i would never put my self into such an appalling situation where life is uncertain and destined to face their certain demise
it would of been much better if these machines we all inherit from our parents never broke down but within only a very short period of time they meet their demise
why oh why did you have to make us so weak and fragile destined to break into fragments
what a shit world all because of this shit machine i am alive in makes the world shit or is the world just shit
i would never come alive enslaved in this awful shit via choice alone no someone would have to force this life on me
otherwise i would leave every time this place brought me alive

 

[Darkover]

life so shit here it's unbearably shit
i fucking hate being alive i don't know why my parents had me they had nothing planned for me just left to my own devices and look where that has gotten me a debilitating brain injury now i am unable to cope with everyday life
fuck all these shitty horrible people for keeping me alive here when i am better off dead, got no fucking weed and i am stuck here wondering why the fuck i am still alive when there is nothing to live for here in this condition

 

[Darkover]

This place is a shithole, I hope you know that
this place doesn't even meet our most basic needs
life is only worth living if you can meet your most basic needs without struggling. But if you constantly struggle to meet your basic needs, the death becomes the most valuable thing to escape suffering
never ever again would i want to exist

 

[Darkover]

Why play this shit game called Life

When I:

Didn't ask for it or even if I did I am not aware of that choice.

Don't feel like I need to be here like what internal or external purpose do I fulfill by being here.

Don't like being here at all. Going through all of this suffering and stress with no payoff, lesson to be learned or sense of progress really makes me just not like being here because what's the point of endlessly suffering?


What the hell did we do to be born into this fucking trap of pain and suffering? This shitty fucking human body. This pure and utter randomness and lack of control. It's all backwards. No one intelligent would ever design this.

 

[Darkover]

what a shitty horrible universe to make creatures that fight and kill each other to be torn apart insides hanging all out to be eaten alive just to survive got to eat everyday that pass is another day spent in this hellhole
and shithole enslaved in awful shit and forced to live out your misery here what a pointless meaning less place to be alive in