Dad told me to jump off a cliff

[PuppyCatTeeth]

My father is a narcissist and abusive and it was his birthday today. I didn't want to ,but I drew him a picture of a video game character he liked, in the hopes he wouldn't go crazy for me not getting anything for him. But he flipped out and got mad because I didn't get him a cake. For context, my mom died around Christmas last year and ever since then his abuse is getting worse and worse. This just sealed the deal that I'm going to ctb.

I hate my life so much I just want my mom. I really wished he died instead of her. Why would I get anything for the man that regularly calls me a bitch and other names and threaten to kick me out. He tried to physically intimidate me by yelling at me while hovering over me with his forehead touching mine then he kissed my forehead??

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Was he always like this? Just wondering if your mum's death affected him? Grief can do mad stuff to people.

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

That's sad to hear, it must have been your mom's death that made him possibly even more unstable. Wish you find deserved peace and rest.

 

[InterestedParty]

My father is a narcissist and abusive and it was his birthday today. I didn't want to ,but I drew him a picture of a video game character he liked, in the hopes he wouldn't go crazy for me not getting anything for him. But he flipped out and got mad because I didn't get him a cake. For context, my mom died around Christmas last year and ever since then his abuse is getting worse and worse. This just sealed the deal that I'm going to ctb.

I hate my life so much I just want my mom. I really wished he died instead of her. Why would I get anything for the man that regularly calls me a bitch and other names and threaten to kick me out. He tried to physically intimidate me by yelling at me while hovering over me with his forehead touching mine then he kissed my forehead??

Don't let him use your mother's death as an excuse, she was your mother too,

 

[SilentSadness]

That's cruel, you gave him a present and he wants you dead, even though he created you? Also I can't stand people who demand presents. I hope you can get out of that toxic environment.

 

[Neowise]

You need to move out of that shithole. Could this be an option? Shared apartment with friends or the like?

 

[Demian]

If I could, I'd give you a hug.

Only bad things come from bad people, and there are a lot of people like that. But think that this is temporary. One day you'll be out of this situation.

But I imagine it must be very difficult to go through all that. If your mother could talk to you, she would surely tell you to be strong and remember that this is temporary. Bad moments pass more quickly than we realize.

If you want, you can send me a dm or write here.