constellationmind
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- Feb 14, 2026
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Hey dudes, we went to a routine appointment with our community mental health team last week and ended up being sectioned under the mental health act and taken to the mental health unit against our will, and put into the locked ward and in one of the high-visibility rooms.
On the first night here we severely self harmed down to the muscle layer, we were found and the nurse pulled the duress alarm and staff came rushing including the medical emergency team and a nurse from the icu, and we were taken to the emergency department to get the wound treated.
It's been a whirlwind of an admission as our dissociation has been through the roof in multiple ways. Thankfully most of the staff here are amazing, and we know we're lucky to be able to say that.
We are now off the mental health act and it's likely that we'll be discharged tomorrow.
Our suicidality is extremely high. We've got a plan that we've had for a long time that is highly lethal and we can't fucking wait to be able to do it.
The only push and pull we have within our system is either falling very hard into our eating disorder as we already have, we've only had one smallish meal since being here otherwise it's been a whole lot of nothing for the past week, and using our eating disorder as a way to express our pain and have our abusers watch us fade away with nothing they can do to stop it, and then die by suicide once we feel we have gotten everything we realistically can from our eating disorder,
or
going for the imminent suicide route and carry it out very very soon.
We're trying to take things moment by moment and see how things evolve naturally for a bit but yeah, we'll see we guess
(We are a Dissociative Identity Disorder who prefers to use plural pronouns such as "we" and "ours" to express our experience of being a dissociative system)
On the first night here we severely self harmed down to the muscle layer, we were found and the nurse pulled the duress alarm and staff came rushing including the medical emergency team and a nurse from the icu, and we were taken to the emergency department to get the wound treated.
It's been a whirlwind of an admission as our dissociation has been through the roof in multiple ways. Thankfully most of the staff here are amazing, and we know we're lucky to be able to say that.
We are now off the mental health act and it's likely that we'll be discharged tomorrow.
Our suicidality is extremely high. We've got a plan that we've had for a long time that is highly lethal and we can't fucking wait to be able to do it.
The only push and pull we have within our system is either falling very hard into our eating disorder as we already have, we've only had one smallish meal since being here otherwise it's been a whole lot of nothing for the past week, and using our eating disorder as a way to express our pain and have our abusers watch us fade away with nothing they can do to stop it, and then die by suicide once we feel we have gotten everything we realistically can from our eating disorder,
or
going for the imminent suicide route and carry it out very very soon.
We're trying to take things moment by moment and see how things evolve naturally for a bit but yeah, we'll see we guess
(We are a Dissociative Identity Disorder who prefers to use plural pronouns such as "we" and "ours" to express our experience of being a dissociative system)
