About 6 months ago my best friend at the time decided to try to ctb while she was with me and I had no idea she was planning it. She's already OD'd and I'd taken her to a hospital not realizing what was going on. She starting going out at night with random sketchy men doing drugs and selling her body for the drugs. I realized it later but we were out and things were fine until she starting doing it again and almost took me out with her in the process. I ended up in a police station, bleeding uncontrollably from being raped by the guy she decided to purchase her drugs from, and put in a psych hospital under a bullshit Emergency Petition as revenge by her for not letting her die. When I arrived at the hospital I was drugged with some medication that works very negatively with alcohol after already being raped and roofied beforehand and woke up in a mental hospital. This entire situation caused more trauma for me to have to deal with, and I'm starting to break.
To know that someone you cared about almost killed you for what they wanted is beyond insane to me.
When I'm ready to CTB I'll do it and not anytime beforehand. It's not her decision to decide when my time has come, and to know that she wanted to kill me and got away with it before more attempts on her part is what's pushing me over the edge.
To know that someone you cared about almost killed you for what they wanted is beyond insane to me.
When I'm ready to CTB I'll do it and not anytime beforehand. It's not her decision to decide when my time has come, and to know that she wanted to kill me and got away with it before more attempts on her part is what's pushing me over the edge.
