CTB training

[Deer_Dairy]

So... the gun I've chosen arrived three weeks ago. Since than, I was trying to imagine how it will feel when the day comes.
I am often rehearsing preparation, aiming on the correct spot and pulling the trigger (no cartridge loaded in chamber, of course).
Pulling the trigger and that "click" was terrifying for first few tries, because I have really long training how to operate gun safely, but now I am perfectly used to it. It is so natural. Take a gun, place it on right spot, pull the trigger.
Do you think this training will help me when the round will be waiting in the chamber?
I am still not sure if I am ready.

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

So... the gun I've chosen arrived three weeks ago. Since than, I was trying to imagine how it will feel when the day comes.
I am often rehearsing preparation, aiming on the correct spot and pulling the trigger (no cartridge loaded in chamber, of course).
Pulling the trigger and that "click" was terrifying for first few tries, because I have really long training how to operate gun safely, but now I am perfectly used to it. It is so natural. Take a gun, place it on right spot, pull the trigger.
Do you think this training will help me when the round will be waiting in the chamber?
I am still not sure if I am ready.

I think it does desensitize the brain. The reason I say that is because I have been sticking my head in a slipknot, to get used to the idea; and each time I do it, I go further and further. Last time I did it, I don't even know how I managed to get out of position, because I was literally blacked out for a second.

So yeah, I think it does "train the brain".

 

[Dinozauria]

I think it'll definitely help a bit
It will probably be difficult when it's actually loaded (particularly on the emotional side), but your practicing should make it easier since you already know the actions to do and are desensitized to it

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I think will it will help a little, but once you put it to your head knowing there is a bullet in the chamber, I think you'll still have to fight SI. Practicing is probably a good idea, but I don't think it will make it easy.

Best of luck.

 

[pinapellicer]

So... the gun I've chosen arrived three weeks ago. Since than, I was trying to imagine how it will feel when the day comes.
I am often rehearsing preparation, aiming on the correct spot and pulling the trigger (no cartridge loaded in chamber, of course).
Pulling the trigger and that "click" was terrifying for first few tries, because I have really long training how to operate gun safely, but now I am perfectly used to it. It is so natural. Take a gun, place it on right spot, pull the trigger.
Do you think this training will help me when the round will be waiting in the chamber?
I am still not sure if I am ready.

How did you decide you are ready to ctb? Were is your determination coming from? Is it hopelessness, or active distress?
I also have my "gun" ready, but i'm still trying to determine what makes the difference between a person with a gun, and a person who ctb with a gun.
What makes you so sure that you will become the latter, and not just stay as the former?