Help CTB Tonight Kids!

[drearylove]

It's finally time! I got my N, been fasting all day, and I'm just drinking up the liquid courage to go ahead with it. Took an anti nasal a couple of hours ago and might take more. If any of you read my previous post, I'm quite familiar with Latam, and I'm gonna get a shitty hotel room soon here in a Latam capital city and just go through with it. I've got 3 vials, and I think I can down them all. I want to take a little sip to see what it's like but I don't want to fuck my tolerance. I'm also hungry and want a last meal, but don't want to mess this up. I'd also love to help anyone who knows there way around Latam find this wonderful stuff, so before I ctb feel free to send a DM. It would also be great to talk to someone if they want to Livestream an N ctb. Not sure how that would work but I like to help.

My only question to myself is who to write suicide notes to, and how mean to be.

I'm tired of everyone telling me things will get better some day. It's been three years of continuous suffering that just gets worse, day by day. Ultimately, I'm a shitty person who's not worth life, not equipped for success in this world, and don't really want to live in this world as it is anyway. I'm not gonna do a goodbye post since my intro was basically that. If I'm alive tomorrow and change my mind...well then I'll have more reasons to hate myself and we can chat....if not, best of luck to you all and have great lives and/or deaths.

 

[zardofan]

I hope you get some peace. And if this ends up not being the right time, no self hatred needed. Better to be all in than to have part of you whispering "what if?"

 

[ForeverCaHa]

Good luck with everything, and I hope you find the peace you are looking for, no matter which choice you make

 

[LunarEc]

I cant seem to DM you because you're new or don't post that much. I really wish you luck, write your heart out to those who you think deserve a note or an explanation. I just wanted to ask you one question I hope this doesn't get taken down, but where did you get N from? Was it on some market that starts with a D and end with a B? Just give me a clue please because I'm also considering buying N, I'm just sketched out by some markets.

 

[drearylove]

For N: A lovely country with two socialist leaders who hate each other in Latin America with no coast...and the less indigenous part. It would be hard working it as a Brad Pitt gringo, honestly

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Ooooh, finding N is no small task. I wish you peace and a safe journey to whatever is out there.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Best wishes, here's hoping you finally find peace and tranquility outside this fucking valley of tears.

 

[DeathSleep]

I hope you find your peace.

 

[Notaname]

Can someone fill me in on what N is?

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Can someone fill me in on what N is?

It's on the main page if you look at the primary threads. Doesn't matter. You won't be finding any. No one does anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best as well.