Ctb today

[iasbics]

You know what. I've changed my plans. I though of going with a 24 hour regimen. But now I'm going to do a stat dose.
10 minutes from now -3x10mg domperidone in little amount of water. I do this for faster absorption since I'm also taking milk of magnesia which inhibits domperidone absorption.
30 minutes after that 5x 200mg ibuprofen and Diohenhydramine 200mg/25mg hel capsules
30minutes after that 60 ml of milk of magnesia
30 minutes after that 3 teaspoons of Sn in as little water as possible. (I don't have a scale.)
I also plan to take it anally simultaneously because I believe I can hold water.

 

[Ghost2211]

How are you feeling about the process, and about ctb?

 

[iasbics]

How are you feeling about the process, and about ctb?

Surprisingly, I'm not nervous at all. My only concern is that someone might find me.
Took my domperidone in water. The taste isn't bad. I hope Sn tastes just like this.

 

[Sail_to_Infinity]

Surprisingly, I'm not nervous at all. My only concern is that someone might find me.
Took my domperidone in water. The taste isn't bad. I hope Sn tastes just like this.

That's why I'm not in favor of doing it wherever any people are nearby you - hotel, motel, house with several front doors where you living with others. Wish you luck and peace whatever you decide :)

 

[Ghost2211]

Surprisingly, I'm not nervous at all. My only concern is that someone might find me.
Took my domperidone in water. The taste isn't bad. I hope Sn tastes just like this.

It's good to hear you're in a calm place. Hopefully you get the personal space you need. I'll be here for Company until the kids need to go to school at 7:30. Keep in mind if it any point you change your mind even after you drink it it's OK to stop or call for help.

 

[S1mpleme]

Seems to much meds as for me. I don't have any meds and I doubt I can get prescription, but I'll try to find some painkillers at least in local stores.

 

[Spinoza]

You know what. I've changed my plans. I though of going with a 24 hour regimen. But now I'm going to do a stat dose.
10 minutes from now -3x10mg domperidone in little amount of water. I do this for faster absorption since I'm also taking milk of magnesia which inhibits domperidone absorption.
30 minutes after that 5x 200mg ibuprofen and Diohenhydramine 200mg/25mg hel capsules
30minutes after that 60 ml of milk of magnesia
30 minutes after that 3 teaspoons of Sn in as little water as possible. (I don't have a scale.)
I also plan to take it anally simultaneously because I believe I can hold water.

I hope you find what you looking for and without suffering.

 

[Jean4]

I hope this helps you. Please think things out and don't do things impulsively.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[iasbics]

I hope it happens with one hour of drinking SN. I've locked the door. And put some small drawers behind it.

 

[randomz]

Are you sure about your decision? Have you exhausted all ways to feel better about life? I realise it might be late to ask that, but stil....gotta make sure.

 

[S1mpleme]

Are you sure about your decision? Have you exhausted all ways to feel better about life? I realise it might be late to ask that, but stil....gotta make sure.

Is there a way to find out 100%? I always unsure about myself whether I want to live or die.

 

[JSauter]

EDIT: Incorrect info.

 

[teddybear1403]

We're here for you regardless of your decision. and we're here if you need any help. I hope you end up in the place where you most feel solace.

 

[randomz]

Is there a way to find out 100%? I always unsure about myself whether I want to live or die.

Well, basically there is always something you can change in your life in order to improve your experience from it. After all, there are some tribes in the jungles in the world who feel happiness with almost nothing to their name.

I just want OP to not rush into such a major and important decision.

 

[iasbics]

Took ibuprofen.

 

[catfletcher]

I respect your right to proceed, but know that you can change your mind whenever you want. You are not alone and we can chat if you like.

 

[iasbics]

Thanks for the support everyone. I'm gonna take milk of magnesia in 15 minutes.

 

[catfletcher]

I tried to start a chat with you, but I'm not seeing anything. I'm pretty new here and maybe don't have chat privileges yet. If you did reply, sorry I've not seen it. How are you feeling?
I don't know your story. If you want to, share some of yourself with us.

 

[LMLN]

I'm sorry its come to this for you...so sad to see you go. But it sounds like you are pretty certain. Peace and love to you whatever happens. Theres no shame in changing your mind. We are here for you. ❤

 

[JSauter]

30 minutes after that 3 teaspoons of Sn in as little water as possible. (I don't have a scale.)

Did you mean tablespoons?

 

[Ghost2211]

Still here with you <3

 

[iasbics]

I read the chart here where it said 3 teaspoons or 1 table spoon of Sn.
Could someone tell me what the color of Sn should look like?

 

[JSauter]

EDIT: Right. I made a mistake.

 

[Ghost2211]

I read the chart here where it said 3 teaspoons or 1 table spoon of Sn.
Could someone tell me what the color of Sn should look like?

It should be white/off white. When mixed in water it's will be be not quite clear but also not quite cloudy

 

[iasbics]

It should be white/off white. When mixed in water it's will be be not quite clear but also not quite cloudy

Thanks. That's what I have. I have prepared several cups and they all look yellowish white and cloudy.
I'm gonna do it in 15 minutes y'all. Wish me luck.
Please be with me everyone until I'm gone. And please keep me happy. I don't wanna be sad when I ctb.

 

[catfletcher]

As I said before, this is your choice. However, before you take the sn, is there anything that is making you hesitate? Anything you would like to finish that is not yet done? I'm here for you.

 

[iasbics]

As I said before, this is your choice. However, before you take the sn, is there anything that is making you hesitate? Anything you would like to finish that is not yet done? I'm here for you.

Nothing at all. I just wanna leave this place asap. My only wish right now is that I don't throw up.

 

[LifeIntolerance]

Good luck. I am with you

 

[russian_roulette]

I hope you are clear with your decision. No matter what happens, we are there for you. I wish you a safe and peaceful journey.

 

[catfletcher]

Nothing at all. I just wanna leave this place asap. My only wish right now is that I don't throw up.

I am so sorry that you feel like this. It's such a lonely place to be. I have been there and wish that I could reach out to you and help you.