its so... sad/ridiculous/enraging/absurd how even in death, we're simply not allowed a dignified, peaceful way out.
n instead, need to resort to more extreme methods like these...
i've thought about train jumping too but, i've been reading it may be less reliable than other similarly accessible methods out there, like hanging/jumping
altho for hanging, if you do it in a rush, you'll probly asphixiate n have a real bad time... theres a better way but, it requires some practice/planning
n w jumping, it sounds like youdo need to at least travel somewhere else to do it, since geting acess to a tall building is not happening.
if youre really going for the train, just remember not to jump while the train is stoping at a station, since its losing velocity it will also lessen the impact, altho ido personaly suggest you think it over maybe, i mean if theres a way not to traumatize others, its worth considering imo.
altho i get the feeling... its not anybody elses fault, but its also not our fault we ended up in this predicament either
in a society of individuals, its tough to place blame or justify ones actions but, at the same time lots of people are CTBing as a result of how things work as a whole, which in turn screws up people lives...
anyway, best of luck to you n, in case i dont see you around anymore, ill meetcha at the curtains call