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LilBird
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- Mar 16, 2020
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I am on a timeline before my ctb. I have lost my profession almost a year ago now and I am about to lose my home insurance money all that, time is ticking now. It's stressing me out… I have my plan in place and just am not fully mentally prepared for the three possible outcomes:
A failed attempt with no medical consequences
A failed attempt with consequences
A successful attempt
I've attempted before ended up in the hospital got lucky and hated myself after tried to rebuild my life then lost it all I'm at the end of my line doing it alone sounds terrifying but asking for a partner takes so much trust and the amount of people I've seen back out (nothing wrong with that!!!) makes me think the possibility of two people going through with it in the same night might be quite rare.
Also, I am probably going to ctb in a hotel but that is the most likely way I won't be found for the longest time. The thought of not being in my own bed instead is a bit uncomfortable but I stay in hotels a lot so I guess it's ok.
Is anyone else on a timeline? Has anyone tried to search out a partner before? Can anyone relate to this /:
A failed attempt with no medical consequences
A failed attempt with consequences
A successful attempt
I've attempted before ended up in the hospital got lucky and hated myself after tried to rebuild my life then lost it all I'm at the end of my line doing it alone sounds terrifying but asking for a partner takes so much trust and the amount of people I've seen back out (nothing wrong with that!!!) makes me think the possibility of two people going through with it in the same night might be quite rare.
Also, I am probably going to ctb in a hotel but that is the most likely way I won't be found for the longest time. The thought of not being in my own bed instead is a bit uncomfortable but I stay in hotels a lot so I guess it's ok.
Is anyone else on a timeline? Has anyone tried to search out a partner before? Can anyone relate to this /: