CTB this month?? maybe??

[gnarpyvents]

i've been heavily debating going through / attempting the night night method this month. my reason for wanting to ctb feels so stupid and selfish but i'm just so tired of things not going right :( waiting for the right time makes me really anxious but also at peace when i think about it? main thing that might stop me is that i dont want my parents or pets to be too sad </3 this is what i want though, just not sure if i will be able to overcome the guilt and fear leading to it.