Method CTB Plan (and potential pitfalls)

[Microwave]

Hello everyone,

I just joined today and thought I would post about my intended method, in the hope of getting some feedback.

I plan to purchase (on the dark web) 140mg Oxycodone, 1gm of Valium, and either 2gm of Propranolol OR 8gm of Amitriptyline.

I was planning on crushing/emptying the pills into a powder, stirring this into grapefruit juice (which raises blood plasma levels of Oxycodone), and then consuming a small glass of a spirit (probably whiskey) for further potentiation.

Before this I was planning to follow a 48 hour antiemetic regiment (I mean, what's the point in doing it if you don't do I properly?). That brings me onto my next point.of my my big fears is fucking it up somehow and waking up with severe brain/nerve/organ/tissue damage. Naturally, I really really want to avoid this happening.

I also have some concerns about being interupted, since the place where I live is a supported accomadation with an intercom in the room that the staff use to check on you once every 24 hours. Moreover, the wall between me and my neighbour are super thin so I would be concerned about them hearing and raising the alarm.

Finally, this may sound paradoxical, but I am actually very scared about suffering while dying, and so I want to do everything in my power to ensure a peaceful death. I have read many posts/comments on reddit that opioid/opioid overdoses are just like a light switch going off - and may even be somewhat pleasant (I'm not too sure about this part). However, I have also read accounts of people experiencing a range of nasty effects from taking opiates, including bad stomach cramps, nausea (which antiemetics do not actually eliminate), agitation, and unpleasant spinning sensations.

TL;DR: I want a reliable and peaceful passing, how likely am I to get this? What else can I do to help ensure this?

Thanks,
Microwave

 

[MidnightDream]

Hey, welcome to the site!

In general, pill overdoses aren't particularly recommended since the chance of them working is pretty low, whilst the chances of them leaving permanent, irreparable damage is pretty high. I don't know much about oxy in terms of lethality, but I do know that they're sold legally in 80mg for people with a tolerance, so I don't know if 140g would actually be enough to kill you - Would depend on your height, weight, tolerance, and the things you do to increase potency as you've described, but even still, 140g is a risky dosage imo.

In terms of actually taking it, oxy really isn't a very comfortable experience.. I did used to take it myself (in higher than standard dosages for...science...and it really wasn't pleasant, I did personally experience everything you described up there and that was on a dose that wouldn't have been lethal to anyone. And then from what I've read, a significant overdose is gonna halt your breathing and prevent oxygen getting to your brain. I can't imagine that being painless or particularly comfortable, and in terms of long-term damage, any oxygen deprivation to the brain is incredibly risky and really isn't something you can control. Being interrupted is a major obstacle for any suicide method, and even more so with something like pills which can take a decent amount of time to really do anything. In this case, you'd be playing with the risk of permanent brain damage.

If you have access to the dark web, I would heavily consider other options such as fent, or look into SN or nitrogen. Those are gonna be your most painless/peaceful options.

 

[Microwave]

Damn that doesn't sound good at all! I just want to be gone and for it not to be awful

I was sorta basing this on the DDMP protocol, except I obviously cannot get Digoxin as it is very difficult to source.

I am entirely opiate naive, and have read that the minimum lethal dose of Oxycodone for someone opiate naive is 80mg, since Oxy is about twice as strong as Morphine. However, the PPH states that 15 grams of Morphine are to be used in for DDMP. Moreover, I have heard some bad things about Oxycodone, it just seems to be the cheapest and most available opiate of reasonable strength available on the dark web. Morphine would be my first choice, but it's hella expensive. I guess fentanyl could be an option, but that is also expensive and what is available is almost certainly going to be some analogue or other strong synthetic opioid. I've messaged sellers to ask for details but recieved no reply.

Thanks for your reply.

 

[jodes2]

That doesn't sound like much oxycodone?

 

[Microwave]

That doesn't sound like much oxycodone?

Yeah that's all I have the money for atm.

I know that 80mg can potentially be lethal on an opioid-naive person. However, PPH suggests a MUCH higher dose of Morphine than the often quoted 200mg.

 

[jodes2]

Yeah that's all I have the money for atm.

I know that 80mg can potentially be lethal on an opioid-naive person. However, PPH suggests a MUCH higher dose of Morphine than the often quoted 200mg.

Ikr, 10 grams of morphine! Very expensive

 

[tilly17]

Hello everyone,

I just joined today and thought I would post about my intended method, in the hope of getting some feedback.

I plan to purchase (on the dark web) 140mg Oxycodone, 1gm of Valium, and either 2gm of Propranolol OR 8gm of Amitriptyline.

I was planning on crushing/emptying the pills into a powder, stirring this into grapefruit juice (which raises blood plasma levels of Oxycodone), and then consuming a small glass of a spirit (probably whiskey) for further potentiation.

Before this I was planning to follow a 48 hour antiemetic regiment (I mean, what's the point in doing it if you don't do I properly?). That brings me onto my next point.of my my big fears is fucking it up somehow and waking up with severe brain/nerve/organ/tissue damage. Naturally, I really really want to avoid this happening.

I also have some concerns about being interupted, since the place where I live is a supported accomadation with an intercom in the room that the staff use to check on you once every 24 hours. Moreover, the wall between me and my neighbour are super thin so I would be concerned about them hearing and raising the alarm.

Finally, this may sound paradoxical, but I am actually very scared about suffering while dying, and so I want to do everything in my power to ensure a peaceful death. I have read many posts/comments on reddit that opioid/opioid overdoses are just like a light switch going off - and may even be somewhat pleasant (I'm not too sure about this part). However, I have also read accounts of people experiencing a range of nasty effects from taking opiates, including bad stomach cramps, nausea (which antiemetics do not actually eliminate), agitation, and unpleasant spinning sensations.

TL;DR: I want a reliable and peaceful passing, how likely am I to get this? What else can I do to help ensure this?

Thanks,
Microwave

As someone who tried twice with heavier opiates and a whole lot more with benzos and sleeping pills…. I woke up and ended up
With sever liver damage for months. Fortunately I didn't have brain damage but now I've seen others who have . It's scary shit to see brain damaged people Z and research shows only 3% actually will die from drug overdoses. The real deaths are usually laced with fentanyl. So
Just do more research as I'd hate to see you end up worse than before and it's not likely you'll succeed with all of this.

 

[Microwave]

Ok. So Fentanyl is really the only opiate that has any chance of success.

So Oxy is basically a waste of time at best, and a much worse situation at worst. Not really what I wanted to hear, but this is why I asked! Thanks.

 

[MidnightDream]

Ok. So Fentanyl is really the only opiate that has any chance of success.

So Oxy is basically a waste of time at best, and a much worse situation at worst. Not really what I wanted to hear, but this is why I asked! Thanks.

I wouldn't call it a waste of time necessarily, but it's high risk for potentially low reward. There's a lot of variables with overdoses and although opiates are one of the better options, there's still those same variables that you'd have to work out and potentially be willing to face. Fent is the same, the thing with fent is that it's stronger so even if it is cut with other stuff, you're still in with a decent chance

 

[onceuponadec]

I'm not an expert, but anytime I hear about successful overdoses. They have a lot of different drugs in their system. Opioids, benzos, heroin, etc. I think you would need a pretty strong cocktail of different drugs to actually be successful.

 

[my-end]

Hello everyone,

I just joined today and thought I would post about my intended method, in the hope of getting some feedback.

I plan to purchase (on the dark web) 140mg Oxycodone, 1gm of Valium, and either 2gm of Propranolol OR 8gm of Amitriptyline.

I was planning on crushing/emptying the pills into a powder, stirring this into grapefruit juice (which raises blood plasma levels of Oxycodone), and then consuming a small glass of a spirit (probably whiskey) for further potentiation.

Before this I was planning to follow a 48 hour antiemetic regiment (I mean, what's the point in doing it if you don't do I properly?). That brings me onto my next point.of my my big fears is fucking it up somehow and waking up with severe brain/nerve/organ/tissue damage. Naturally, I really really want to avoid this happening.

I also have some concerns about being interupted, since the place where I live is a supported accomadation with an intercom in the room that the staff use to check on you once every 24 hours. Moreover, the wall between me and my neighbour are super thin so I would be concerned about them hearing and raising the alarm.

Finally, this may sound paradoxical, but I am actually very scared about suffering while dying, and so I want to do everything in my power to ensure a peaceful death. I have read many posts/comments on reddit that opioid/opioid overdoses are just like a light switch going off - and may even be somewhat pleasant (I'm not too sure about this part). However, I have also read accounts of people experiencing a range of nasty effects from taking opiates, including bad stomach cramps, nausea (which antiemetics do not actually eliminate), agitation, and unpleasant spinning sensations.

TL;DR: I want a reliable and peaceful passing, how likely am I to get this? What else can I do to help ensure this?

Thanks,
Microwave

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/shallow-water-blackout.101163/

 

[almostoutofhere]

Ok. So Fentanyl is really the only opiate that has any chance of success.

So Oxy is basically a waste of time at best, and a much worse situation at worst. Not really what I wanted to hear, but this is why I asked! Thanks.

Heroin overdose is easier to achieve, if you're comfortable with iv yourself. And it's way cheaper than oxy

 

[tilly17]

Ok. So Fentanyl is really the only opiate that has any chance of success.

So Oxy is basically a waste of time at best, and a much worse situation at worst. Not really what I wanted to hear, but this is why I asked! Thanks.

I was devastated! I took everything I had and more than just oxycodone, I took heavy hitters and survived twice. Someone called the cops from a support group from a different state the first time and I was found. The second time I took Tons and I mean tons of opiates, benzodiazepines, sleeping pills and all… and I woke up 6 days later.
If is some more research on it Is never tried and lost all my feel good meds. Afterwards I was determined to ctb and learned that only 3% actually die! People usually also have an underlying condition that results in their death from the opiates. My pain clinic confirmed all this which is why I choose to use SN. I have a resource I got mine from in 3 days.
Just don't want you to experience all
That only to wake up. And usually have damage of some sort to the brain

 

[myownpetvirus]

I have overdosed on opiates before and yes I can attest it's very pleasurable and you will not know you are dying. If you are totally opiate naive 140 mg should do the trick but it's definitely not a guarantee. I would be looking in the 300+ range. Opioids are VERY easy to die from there were 100000 deaths last year on accident. There were very few people left with permanent brain damage. Opiates are ultimately what I'll go with as I know exactly how it's going to feel. I think snorting it would be the most successful because it is less likely to be vomited up. People hate on opiates as a method on these forums but fail to realize N can also leave you with permanent brain damage. They both just surpress your breathing until you die while unconscious

 

[Microwave]

I have overdosed on opiates before and yes I can attest it's very pleasurable and you will not know you are dying. If you are totally opiate naive 140 mg should do the trick but it's definitely not a guarantee. I would be looking in the 300+ range. Opioids are VERY easy to die from there were 100000 deaths last year on accident. There were very few people left with permanent brain damage. Opiates are ultimately what I'll go with as I know exactly how it's going to feel. I think snorting it would be the most successful because it is less likely to be vomited up. People hate on opiates as a method on these forums but fail to realize N can also leave you with permanent brain damage. They both just surpress your breathing until you die while unconscious

If PPH is anything to go by then a.massive dose is going to be needed. I asked about 140mg because it's all I can afford atm. I'm worried about stockpiling because I don't really want to have the temptation of having 'happy pills' in my room.

So it was pleasurable initially? It can't have been when you woke up though right?

Was your previous overdose accidental?

How do you plan to ensure it is fatal if you do decide to ctb in future?

 

[DeepDespair101]

If you're getting these off the DW, they're likely cut with at least a couple mg of fent. H would be cheaper and easier to OD on though. I OD'ed on around 16mg of fent but had a lot of other shit in my system and was very opiate tolerant. I can also attest that it was incredibly pleasurable/peaceful and you won't even know what's happening until you're well asleep. To answer your above question also, it wasn't painful or anything when I was revived by EMS. It was more of a shock than anything. I know it's different for everyone though. Hope this helps!

 

[jrumbles]

I was devastated! I took everything I had and more than just oxycodone, I took heavy hitters and survived twice. Someone called the cops from a support group from a different state the first time and I was found. The second time I took Tons and I mean tons of opiates, benzodiazepines, sleeping pills and all… and I woke up 6 days later.
If is some more research on it Is never tried and lost all my feel good meds. Afterwards I was determined to ctb and learned that only 3% actually die! People usually also have an underlying condition that results in their death from the opiates. My pain clinic confirmed all this which is why I choose to use SN. I have a resource I got mine from in 3 days.
Just don't want you to experience all
That only to wake up. And usually have damage of some sort to the brain

Would really love to hear how much you took!

 

[tinkatonshammer]

If you're getting these off the DW, they're likely cut with at least a couple mg of fent. H would be cheaper and easier to OD on though. I OD'ed on around 16mg of fent but had a lot of other shit in my system and was very opiate tolerant. I can also attest that it was incredibly pleasurable/peaceful and you won't even know what's happening until you're well asleep. To answer your above question also, it wasn't painful or anything when I was revived by EMS. It was more of a shock than anything. I know it's different for everyone though. Hope this helps!

this. rarely are you going to be getting real, actual, pharma-grade oxy IR off the DW. always going to be pressed with fent, some -zene, or some other random designer opioid nobody has ever even heard of yet. sending love

 

[myownpetvirus]

this. rarely are you going to be getting real, actual, pharma-grade oxy IR off the DW. always going to be pressed with fent, some -zene, or some other random designer opioid nobody has ever even heard of yet. sending love

There is one hundred percent real pharma grade OxyContin available on the dark web from multiple vendors. Just don't buy the like blue m30s. The OC 80s are prevalent and widely available and are 100 percent not pressed

 

[oneeyed]

Well, not much more to add to what was already said but to ensure you're successful, you're going to want more oxy or something stronger. There's fent of course but it's usually cut in other products and not sold on its own (correct me if I'm wrong). I have been trying to get sources for "research chemicals" for nitazenes, not all analogues are controlled. But then again, the US has a blanket ban on all analogues :(

 

[tinkatonshammer]

There is one hundred percent real pharma grade OxyContin available on the dark web from multiple vendors. Just don't buy the like blue m30s. The OC 80s are prevalent and widely available and are 100 percent not pressed

you cannot possibly be certain of that? not that it really matters i guess since OD'ing is the goal here

 

[Microwave]

Well, not much more to add to what was already said but to ensure you're successful, you're going to want more oxy or something stronger. There's fent of course but it's usually cut in other products and not sold on its own (correct me if I'm wrong). I have been trying to get sources for "research chemicals" for nitazenes, not all analogues are controlled. But then again, the US has a blanket ban on all analogues :(

The dark web market that I use has several analogues and a "strong opioid mixture" that are all powders. They are yellow isotonetazene, white isotonetazene, a purple mixture of unspecified potency, and a "Fentanyl opioid" that is sold as being 150x the potency of morphine, but is apparently not actual Fentanyl and the seller is not forthcoming about what substance it is.

Trump pressured China to make Fentanyl illegal, but they still export analogues. Like China, the dark web markets have banned fentanyl but not it's analogues, so the ban is just BS really. All it means is that the chemicals available might be more lethal, and that there is greater risk / uncertainty around potency and adulterents.

I'm tempted to get one of these analogues. I'd like a peaceful death though, and the potency of the analogues is even less clear than that of fent, making it harder to measure a suitable dose for a peaceful death (I.e. without the massive heart attack that LARGE fent doses can cause), and quite possible that one could have a seriously bad trip instead of passing peacefully as with the much coveted 'stereotypical heroin overdose'.

 

[Microwave]

There is one hundred percent real pharma grade OxyContin available on the dark web from multiple vendors. Just don't buy the like blue m30s. The OC 80s are prevalent and widely available and are 100 percent not pressed

The thing with the laced m30's is just in the US right? What about in the UK? Does anyone know?

 

[june]

The thing with the laced m30's is just in the US right? What about in the UK? Does anyone know?

Prob the same

 

[Microwave]

What about 150mg of Hydromorphone?