CTB over fear of failed marriage

[SadFather2020]

I feel selfish saying this but I wish to ctb only if my marriage fails. I have gained one final chance with my family and have some hope yet still think obsessively about CTB.. I fear I am a selfish coward but I just cannot live without my family. I have borderline personality disorder and that makes it likely my relationships will fail. I'm scared.

 

[StringPuppet]

You shouldn't feel selfish, to me this just sounds like you really love your wife/husband and if they love you then they should be patient with your BPD.

 

[Ghost2211]

It's not selfish. It's just being honest when we are realistic about what we can handle. I hope things go well.

 

[MrBigSad]

I always found selfish to be a failure of an insult.

Like so what, you think about yourself for once instead of others? Shame on you.

 

[Meditation guide]

Like so what, you think about yourself for once instead of others? Shame on you.

I like how you put that. I'm going to remember that and remind myself of this.

 

[antigone_iris]

You are very brave and not selfish. I'm glad you're here with us and I'm sure your family loves you too. I hope things will work out for the best for you and your family.