Help CTB on a Turkish beach at sunset?

[howard]

Hi all. I am hatching a fanciful yet workable idea for my self. I Have all kit ready for SN CTB.
I live in a small rented shit hole in the poor part of Manchester. I have no future options no family or good friends here.
I have a very good freind in Turkey and a few grand left.
Basically I plan to go to Turkey for a month over Christmas. Stay in a nice hotel by the beach and near end of stay, when the time is right take my 'medicine". Probable after sunset on the beach with a pillow and some music from my phone. I have checked flight options which are all workable and cheap.
What could I expect with SN and meto in my luggage? OR what's the chance of buying some or better N while in Turkey. I would be in Bodrum? My music would be some Vangelis unless anyone has other suggestions?

Please help.. I could really do this and would make my last days wonderful
Edit.
..music would be by vangelis (bloody) auto text

 

[Thisisjustadream]

I am new here what do SN CTB and N mean?

 

[howard]

Because they are used so often they abbreviated for Sodium nitrite and cease to breath (some say catch the bus)
Welcome . This is a great forum full of help when you need it the most. Can I ask if you can help any way with my question about travel, have you been to Turkey?
Howad
Sorry you asked about N, it's for Nebutal a medication used for euthanasia.

 

[Thisisjustadream]

When my time comes i have a set date and place in mind as well

 

[howard]

I think when the decision is made (yet reversible) you can relax and maybe little improvements can happen! . I am finding that. A few days ago got my SN medicine and I felt in control. I have been loving life since! With the plan in mind.
Keep well, be strong.
Howard

 

[Foster13]

Hi all. I am hatching a fanciful yet workable idea for my self. I Have all kit ready for SN CTB.
I live in a small rented shit hole in the poor part of Manchester. I have no future options no family or good friends here.
I have a very good freind in Turkey and a few grand left.
Basically I plan to go to Turkey for a month over Christmas. Stay in a nice hotel by the beach and near end of stay, when the time is right take my 'medicine". Probable after sunset on the beach with a pillow and some music from my phone. I have checked flight options which are all workable and cheap.
What could I expect with SN and meto in my luggage? OR what's the chance of buying some or better N while in Turkey. I would be in Bodrum? My music would be some Vangelis unless anyone has other suggestions?

Please help.. I could really do this and would make my last days wonderful
Edit.
..music would be by vangelis (bloody) auto text

Meto will be no problem I'm sure.
Regarding SN, just have the receipt and unpacked/unopened bag of SN close together so customs can check it if necessary. None of those two is something illegal.
I would also have meto in my carry-on luggage since it's just a medicine; and sn in the luggage, so that they are separated and cause less suspicion.

 

[howard]

Thanks that's good to know. I think I will still be worried. It's an odd substance to take on a holiday! And am going with one way ticket!
Think I'll try to check with Turkish customs as well.

 

[howard]

Bloody hell!!!!!!! I've actually just booked and paid for the Hotel. Its lovely, know it, on beach but near town, 4 star, and really is. My God 6 hours ago just a pipe dream. I commiting to a wonder sunset ending, with a final SN/raki shot. ,think really then to maybe wait 5 mins till dizziness then walk into sea go back stroke slowly until it ends.

Going to book flight now....one way.

 

[bea1974]

It really sounds like a great way to ctb. As long as nobody spots you and intervenes. Really beautiful. I am quite inspired!

 

[howard]

Thanks bea 1974
Im booking 4 weeks but could stay until my money runs out. I could squeeze out another months easily
I have a uk car to sell and a nice diamond ring I bought there last time. I think my problem obviously would be wanting or not it to end. Tho there would be no coming back! No money no ticket no home.

Want to join me??

 

[İnilerim]

I was in Turkey this summer as part of a school program. It is a wonderful place.

 

[howard]

It is indeed. I expect cooler over xmas time but warm enough for an evening dip. Where were you? I last stayed in Ortokent near Bodrum, same as my next (and last) trip.

 

[İnilerim]

I spent 3 weeks in Ankara, but we visited a lot of surrounding places during day and weekend trips, one was to a small town near the black sea. Then one week in Istanbul.

 

[howard]

That sounds great. They are lovely people with an amazing culture and history. I took a few boat trips which were great.
I am planning to read a great deal while there up to ctb, as in 50 odd years I know I haven't read hardly enough so am going to take a few great books along. Can you recommend any?

 

[lymbo]

Hi all. I am hatching a fanciful yet workable idea for my self. I Have all kit ready for SN CTB.
I live in a small rented shit hole in the poor part of Manchester. I have no future options no family or good friends here.
I have a very good freind in Turkey and a few grand left.
Basically I plan to go to Turkey for a month over Christmas. Stay in a nice hotel by the beach and near end of stay, when the time is right take my 'medicine". Probable after sunset on the beach with a pillow and some music from my phone. I have checked flight options which are all workable and cheap.
What could I expect with SN and meto in my luggage? OR what's the chance of buying some or better N while in Turkey. I would be in Bodrum? My music would be some Vangelis unless anyone has other suggestions?

Please help.. I could really do this and would make my last days wonderful
Edit.
..music would be by vangelis (bloody) auto text

can u shere wyth us your reason for ctb?

 

[bea1974]

can u shere wyth us your reason for ctb?

Why?

You ask people this a lot. You keep asking people to justify/explain and that doesn't seem right to me. Why does it matter? We all have our own reasons and they are our business, nobody else's. If we wanted to share them, we would have, why keep asking?

 

[lymbo]

Why?

You ask people this a lot. Feels a bit like you're asking people to justify/explain and I wonder why.

no ym just curyous , no judgyng ym yn the same boat

 

[BipolarExpat]

If you've got an entire month or more, you might consider overnighters at Pamukkale and/or Cappadocia.
Especially if you haven't been before.

 

[iamfineha]

I dont mean to be a party pooper here, im curious whos gonna take care of your body after you ctb?

 

[MeltingHeart]

That sounds great. They are lovely people with an amazing culture and history. I took a few boat trips which were great.
I am planning to read a great deal while there up to ctb, as in 50 odd years I know I haven't read hardly enough so am going to take a few great books along. Can you recommend any?

Maybe you will love it so much - you might want to stay- start a new life in Turkey! Hallumi forever!

 

[howard]

Hi I will answer the last few posts in one. Hope i cover all.

Ctb decision has been in the making for about 5 years.
Lumbar degeneration has set in. I've had many surgeries. I can only hobble short distances with elbow crutches.
I am in constant pain and no amount of painkillers work. More surgery due, which is a spinal fusion with 90% chance of loss of use of legs and bowel function.
Death of my life partner 3 and half years ago and some very bad financial decisions after that have left me facing penniless homelessness (no benefits) very soon.
I have mitral valve regurgitation at 10% so heading for heart failure issues and surgery.
Those are some of the reasons.

I leave my body to the sea!! Really tho it may be found eventually and the Turkish authorities will deal with it as we would one of theirs

I think I've answered all I can there.

I've been hours trying to book flights.
Nightmare when off season.

Edit add on. There are more of my reasons in my thread opening post.


I really need any informed advice about customs etc with a bottle of SN from Russia! And the meto.

Wish you all peace.

 

[MeltingHeart]

Ahh

Hi I will answer the last few posts in one. Hope i cover all.

Ctb decision has been in the making for about 5 years.
Lumbar degeneration has set in. I've had many surgeries. I can only hobble short distances with elbow crutches.
I am in constant pain and no amount of painkillers work. More surgery due, which is a spinal fusion with 90% chance of loss of use of legs and bowel function.
Death of my life partner 3 and half years ago and some very bad financial decisions after that have left me facing penniless homelessness (no benefits) very soon.
I have mitral valve regurgitation at 10% so heading for heart failure issues and surgery.
Those are some of the reasons.

I leave my body to the sea!! Really tho it may be found eventually and the Turkish authorities will deal with it as we would one of theirs

I think I've answered all I can there.

I've been hours trying to book flights.
Nightmare when off season.

Wish you all peace.

I'm sorry. Turkey sounds nice. Wish you peace also.

 

[lymbo]

Hi I will answer the last few posts in one. Hope i cover all.

Ctb decision has been in the making for about 5 years.
Lumbar degeneration has set in. I've had many surgeries. I can only hobble short distances with elbow crutches.
I am in constant pain and no amount of painkillers work. More surgery due, which is a spinal fusion with 90% chance of loss of use of legs and bowel function.
Death of my life partner 3 and half years ago and some very bad financial decisions after that have left me facing penniless homelessness (no benefits) very soon.
I have mitral valve regurgitation at 10% so heading for heart failure issues and surgery.
Those are some of the reasons.

I leave my body to the sea!! Really tho it may be found eventually and the Turkish authorities will deal with it as we would one of theirs

I think I've answered all I can there.

I've been hours trying to book flights.
Nightmare when off season.

Edit add on. There are more of my reasons in my thread opening post.


I really need any informed advice about customs etc with a bottle of SN from Russia! And the meto.

Wish you all peace.

ym on thys forum wyth the same reason low back severe payn from 2 years

 

[pain in my heart]

The holiday in Turkey sounds absolutely amazing. A lovely way to end things, in my opinion.

 

[howard]

Lymbo indeed it gets intolerable much more than a twinge or ache.
Have had scans yet, any surgery done or needed. How are you dealing with pains?

 

[lymbo]

Lymbo indeed it gets intolerable much more than a twinge or ache.
Have had scans yet, any surgery done or needed. How are you dealing with pains?

have done all the scans , they fynd 2 hernyated dysks that seems to be the root cause, they dont say y need surgery havent done any surgery and even yf they recomended y wont do yt , yd rather off myself before let them cut me, heard too much horror storyes of fayled back surgeryes that leave people yn even worse shape , payn meds dont work , payn ys 24/7 at seems to get worse wyth tyme, yt all started when y was foolysh enough to start avery fysycly demandyng job loadyng crates ,ym full of regret to ever start thys shy job but cant turn back tyme, was there a poynt for u, a start ynjury or trauma that started the degeneratyon? yt sucks coz ym only 31

 

[Stan]

Hi all. I am hatching a fanciful yet workable idea for my self. I Have all kit ready for SN CTB.
I live in a small rented shit hole in the poor part of Manchester. I have no future options no family or good friends here.
I have a very good freind in Turkey and a few grand left.
Basically I plan to go to Turkey for a month over Christmas. Stay in a nice hotel by the beach and near end of stay, when the time is right take my 'medicine". Probable after sunset on the beach with a pillow and some music from my phone. I have checked flight options which are all workable and cheap.
What could I expect with SN and meto in my luggage? OR what's the chance of buying some or better N while in Turkey. I would be in Bodrum? My music would be some Vangelis unless anyone has other suggestions?

Please help.. I could really do this and would make my last days wonderful
Edit.
..music would be by vangelis (bloody) auto text

I think that is a great idea!

Everything you have is legal. Even if they open the SN as long as you close it back up in an airtight container you will be good. Fabulous end mate. Hope it works out for you!

 

[howard]

The holiday in Turkey sounds absolutely amazing. A lovely way to end things, in my opinion.

Thanks, I hope it will be warmer than where I am, and the foods are amazing. I am thinking of doing some sort of informative blog. Not in depth like some, but about my moods as deadline closes in etc..
Keep well.

 

[lymbo]

have done all the scans , they fynd 2 hernyated dysks that seems to be the root cause, they dont say y need surgery havent done any surgery and even yf they recomended y wont do yt , yd rather off myself before let them cut me, heard too much horror storyes of fayled back surgeryes that leave people yn even worse shape , payn meds dont work , payn ys 24/7 at seems to get worse wyth tyme, yt all started when y was foolysh enough to start avery fysycly demandyng job loadyng crates ,ym full of regret to ever start thys shyt job but cant turn back tyme, was there a poynt for u, a start ynjury or trauma that started the degeneratyon? yt sucks coz ym only 31

 

[howard]

have done all the scans , they fynd 2 hernyated dysks that seems to be the root cause, they dont say y need surgery havent done any surgery and even yf they recomended y wont do yt , yd rather off myself before let them cut me, heard too much horror storyes of fayled back surgeryes that leave people yn even worse shape , payn meds dont work , payn ys 24/7 at seems to get worse wyth tyme, yt all started when y was foolysh enough to start avery fysycly demandyng job loadyng crates ,ym full of regret to ever start thys shy job but cant turn back tyme, was there a poynt for u, a start ynjury or trauma that started the degeneratyon? yt sucks coz ym only 31

I am sorry for your pain. I Know how it is. I hope you are getting good pain management etc..
I've had one discectomy that didn't work. Now I'm on list for fusion of lower back l5 to s1. With 10%chance of benefit!! That's why I'm going as I am. Mine is genetic and something to do with pars defect and fracture. Just got worse over the years.
Have you been thro any of the therapy, like physio or chiropractic?
I feel so sorry for what you are suffering. If you had no pain would you feel ti ctb it's just that you are still young. The pain could possibly be removed.
I wish you peace and pain relief!