CTB - My bus is en route.

[ObsessiveCompulsive]

I wasn't going to post a goodbye post as I don't communicate here too much but I will anyway.

I opted for January 29 but I won't be seeing that date, I came to a realization why I cannot learn, why I lose focus, why I experienced almost every disorder in the book - Trauma from a very young age, deep rooted, now I'm too far gone.

Since I joined I watched numerous other members post their goodbyes, and then not return, I feel for every one of them, let's take a moment to remember them.

I would like to thank everyone for the support here, if it wasn't for this site I would never have realized my own issues, my doctor won't even help, not that I want it anymore.

My method - I got a few, I can't get SN, so I've got the supplies for night-night, if that don't work then I am jumping off a cliff just 5 minutes away from my house, people jumped off this before, including one of my good friends.. I am determined, building this up for months.

I am now getting my remaining affairs in order, it will take a day or two, finishing my note and seeing my relatives one last time, I will be self banning tonight or tomorrow, it will be hours before my attempt (mods no need to worry!)

Thank you all again, I wish you all the best. Peace and love to you all.

 

[mediocre]

aw I never met you but seen you around the forum. Whatever you decide I'm sending you love and support

 

[starshotplagues]

i wish you eternal peace

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

Only spoke to you a couple of times, but as I will undoubtedly say many more times, godspeed and hope you find peace.

 

[jgm63]

safe travels, everything will be okay....

post some more updates whenever you feel like it to keep us updated....

 

[Meant2Die]

I really hope you find peace Good luck.

 

[ObsessiveCompulsive]

Thank you all❤

 

[GinaIsReady]

Best wishes, friend.

 

[Weakling666]

Remember, this is a beautiful thing. Please do so with care, you will be at peace. Thinking of you.

 

[Fragile]

i hope that you find peace, and that everything goes smoothly.

good luck.

 

[Azzy69]

Good luck sad to say bye to another user

 

[ObsessiveCompulsive]

Update: I am now self banning, peace and love to you all❤

 

[Time]

I hope that you find peace, OB. Take care.

 

[Ghosted]

Peace be with you.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

Peace to you. May your suffering end.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I am so sorry you've had such a hard life, and for the suffering you've endured. Even though I don't know you, it makes me sad that you're going to CTB. I'm sending you love and support.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Safe journey, and may you have peace.

 

[6ixxy]

Not the type of thread I wanted to wake up too:(
Wishing you peace & good luck my friend

 

[Peeb]

Wishing you a safe journey

 

[jgm63]

@ObsessiveCompulsive Hope you're doing ok....
Feel free to keep us updated.....

 

[Moonicide]

Wishing you nothing, but love and peace.
Take care, love.

 

[woxihuanni]

Fair winds, hope you find peace...

 

[omneus morimor]

may your sleep be eternal and your mind be at ease.
omneus morimor (all must die) :(:

 

[Nem]

Wishing you peace whatever your decision turns out to be

 

[ReadyToMeetMyMaker]

Wishing you peace and safe travels.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Peace and comfort to you.

 

[voyager]

Know what you mean about the brain fog, hope you find a better place. Best of luck to you!

 

[Jean4]

I may have missed you, but be at peace.