Rue89
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- Feb 10, 2020
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Yesterday I had made plans to ctb on Friday, then this feeling of loneliness came over me. That same feeling I had earlier this year, that I don't want to die alone. It's not doubts about ctb; I'm sure I want to and need to do this. It's hard to explain. I guess I just need to get over it, and any other ctb anxiety I have.
I don't know if I'll still try tomorrow or not. I set my alarm for 4am, the time I'd need to get up. I guess I'll have to see if I can even get myself out of bed. Ugh I feel pathetic. Sorry for another pointless venting post.
I don't know if I'll still try tomorrow or not. I set my alarm for 4am, the time I'd need to get up. I guess I'll have to see if I can even get myself out of bed. Ugh I feel pathetic. Sorry for another pointless venting post.