Illegal Preclear
The CEO of CTB
- Sep 6, 2022
- 217
That's really how it be. Setting aside the fact of the fear and uncertainty of the process itself, all of us who are here, who have accepted that the only way forward is through death, are cosmonauts embarking on the ultimate journey. We are moving to "The Undiscovered Country" as Shakespeare put it. I'm writing this because I want everyone here to appreciate how truly courageous they are to face the absolute unknown. A lot of us are here because we're disabled and no longer have a shot at a viable quality of life. Some of us are here because of external circumstances such as losing loved ones, careers ending or extreme poverty. Some of us are just here because they are just plain dissatisfied with this area of the physical universe we inhabit. As they should be. The first step to true freedom is to realize you're in prison - and this is objectively a prison planet.
I see people here who condemn all existence, and I don't blame them - if life on Earth in this narrow spectrum of visible light in our carbon 666 meat vessels (carbon has 6 Protons, 6 Neutrons and 6 Electrons) was all the existence there is, then existence would absolutely be objectively garbage. But I believe there is so much existence outside of the narrow slit window of the visible light spectrum. Outside of these physical meat bodies. Outside this planet, outside this dimension. Existence in forms we can't comprehend while trapped in these meat vessels.
I've always believed this, from my earliest memories. From my earliest memories I knew I wasn't from this world. There is a real phenomenon of children having "before life memories" that many ascribe to the existence of past lives, but it wasn't even an Earthly past life for me. I had memories as a child of existing in a complete different state of being, in a different world, and I was sucked into an energy vortex and trapped on this planet. I REMEMBER entering "the Matrix". Of course, the Psychroaches diagnosed me with Autism and early onset Schizoaffective Disorder and drugged me up to my eyeballs on top of abusing me so I was done with life before I could even read. But mental illness or not, I've kept this belief alive.
All of us, before we were entrapped on this Prison Planet, existed as PURE ENERGY. For whatever reason, we were taken from that pure state and thrust into 666 meat vessels created by other people trapped in 666 meat vessels reproducing because that's what they're PROGRAMMED to do.
Whether by incident or accident, we here have broken that programming. Attachment to life on this Planet, fear of death, and that PESKY, NASTY SI is like a house arrest anklet tethering us to this prison of the Demiurge (in essence, Satan). I think this is something we should be proud of. You're not CTBing because you are a failure or you're a coward. Your personal fate has lead you to the point where you want to, or have to CTB, because you have a greater journey ahead of you - and to take the first leap of that journey, the act of CTB itself, you're tasked with doing something that requires so much courage. You're defying everything you're forcibly programmed to do and believe on a biological and psychological level - that's hardcore. Really, really hardcore.
When the rope around my neck severs my chains to this Prison Planet, I fully intend to spit in the face of the Demiurge on my way out.
I see people here who condemn all existence, and I don't blame them - if life on Earth in this narrow spectrum of visible light in our carbon 666 meat vessels (carbon has 6 Protons, 6 Neutrons and 6 Electrons) was all the existence there is, then existence would absolutely be objectively garbage. But I believe there is so much existence outside of the narrow slit window of the visible light spectrum. Outside of these physical meat bodies. Outside this planet, outside this dimension. Existence in forms we can't comprehend while trapped in these meat vessels.
I've always believed this, from my earliest memories. From my earliest memories I knew I wasn't from this world. There is a real phenomenon of children having "before life memories" that many ascribe to the existence of past lives, but it wasn't even an Earthly past life for me. I had memories as a child of existing in a complete different state of being, in a different world, and I was sucked into an energy vortex and trapped on this planet. I REMEMBER entering "the Matrix". Of course, the Psychroaches diagnosed me with Autism and early onset Schizoaffective Disorder and drugged me up to my eyeballs on top of abusing me so I was done with life before I could even read. But mental illness or not, I've kept this belief alive.
All of us, before we were entrapped on this Prison Planet, existed as PURE ENERGY. For whatever reason, we were taken from that pure state and thrust into 666 meat vessels created by other people trapped in 666 meat vessels reproducing because that's what they're PROGRAMMED to do.
Whether by incident or accident, we here have broken that programming. Attachment to life on this Planet, fear of death, and that PESKY, NASTY SI is like a house arrest anklet tethering us to this prison of the Demiurge (in essence, Satan). I think this is something we should be proud of. You're not CTBing because you are a failure or you're a coward. Your personal fate has lead you to the point where you want to, or have to CTB, because you have a greater journey ahead of you - and to take the first leap of that journey, the act of CTB itself, you're tasked with doing something that requires so much courage. You're defying everything you're forcibly programmed to do and believe on a biological and psychological level - that's hardcore. Really, really hardcore.
When the rope around my neck severs my chains to this Prison Planet, I fully intend to spit in the face of the Demiurge on my way out.