CTB in this week

[RadiantNumber]

I think I'm gonna do CTB in this week, not today but somewhere in this week, cause I have job inteviews, I'll do it only if they'll fail, this is the reason I want to do it
- I am strugling with mental health issuses, I have depression and took medicines from which I think I am addicted
- I am 30 living alone in my apartment for which I took loan when I have previous job, I live alone and have no partner, also I feels that nobody understands me and people are averted to me
- I lost job and from above half a year I try to find one, I have loan from bank, and there are other things to pay like bills
- My family seems do not understand me, they think I do it (not looking for job) for purpose, not even considering I try but also struggle from other problems

I do not ask for symapthy, I think I am living piece of shit, just wanted to share my thoughts with somebody
My metod will be blocking vents I guess, I have gas boiler, so if I block vents it would make enough CO to send me to the other side

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever you decide.

 

[RadiantNumber]

I wish you the best in whatever you decide.

Thanks :)

 

[RadiantNumber]

I have one questions, is carbon monoxide method causing SI?

 

[Iamchickenhat]

I'm deeply sorry you feel the need. I understand how unapproachable things must be right now. I wish you some peace to make the best decision for yourself.

 

[RadiantNumber]

I'm deeply sorry you feel the need. I understand how unapproachable things must be right now. I wish you some peace to make the best decision for yourself.

Thanks :)

 

[korra]

Good luck m8

 

[RadiantNumber]

Good luck m8

Thanks and thanks again for everyone

 

[Davey40210]

Good luck whatever you decide. Hope your job interviews go well.

 

[RadiantNumber]

Good luck whatever you decide. Hope your job interviews go well.

Thanks very much!

 

[heavyeyes]

I'm so sorry you're going through so much. I wish you luck with whatever you decide to do

 

[RadiantNumber]

I'm so sorry you're going through so much. I wish you luck with whatever you decide to do

Thanks <3
This forum is more supportive than anyone else

 

[RadiantNumber]

Hey, that's me, sorry for digging up this thread, but I didn't want to create a new one, it's more than a week, and I am still alive and jobless, and I wonder if there is some drug to make quickly to stop heart, without pain and waiting