banger12
Former nerd; current burden
- Aug 1, 2024
- 194
I'll likely need to CTB in a hotel room because I don't want family in the way nor do I want to traumatize them by finding my body, especially in their house.
But that brings up an interesting dilemma, and since I want CTB in the most optimal and ethical way I want to work through it here, and maybe this helps others along the way too. Are there any etiquette or moral rules I should follow if/when CTB in a hotel or motel room? Is it even really ok to do so?
Obviously I have in mind whichever poor staffer has the misfortune of finding my corpse (if they knew me they'd knew they shouldn't be bothered by the death of a PoS like me and maybe should be entertained by the sight, but that certainly won't be the case). Although I must say better traumatizing a stranger in my view that my father or stepmom. But there's also weird considerations like is it morally ok? Should I restrict my options to shitty motels? I'm sure their staff expect things like that and maybe it's the more ethical option, but I had to stay in shitty motels while traveling as a kid and then as a teen and I fucking hate them and I'd rather die in something nicer (not necessarily too nice). Is that wrong, or weird, or unnecessary?
Idk its a weird question(s) I'm sure but I do honestly want everybody's thoughts on this. Maybe I should go out into the woods or something (tho transport would be borderline impossible for an autistic man who can't drive like me).
But that brings up an interesting dilemma, and since I want CTB in the most optimal and ethical way I want to work through it here, and maybe this helps others along the way too. Are there any etiquette or moral rules I should follow if/when CTB in a hotel or motel room? Is it even really ok to do so?
Obviously I have in mind whichever poor staffer has the misfortune of finding my corpse (if they knew me they'd knew they shouldn't be bothered by the death of a PoS like me and maybe should be entertained by the sight, but that certainly won't be the case). Although I must say better traumatizing a stranger in my view that my father or stepmom. But there's also weird considerations like is it morally ok? Should I restrict my options to shitty motels? I'm sure their staff expect things like that and maybe it's the more ethical option, but I had to stay in shitty motels while traveling as a kid and then as a teen and I fucking hate them and I'd rather die in something nicer (not necessarily too nice). Is that wrong, or weird, or unnecessary?
Idk its a weird question(s) I'm sure but I do honestly want everybody's thoughts on this. Maybe I should go out into the woods or something (tho transport would be borderline impossible for an autistic man who can't drive like me).