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ScaredToLive
Student
- Feb 2, 2020
- 126
I guess I don't know if I feel valid for this? I've wanted to die since I hit about 25? I'm just not comfortable with aging. I have had a life filled with shit trauma but I always looked good ( sorry if that comes off arrogant) it was the only constant in my life.
My only sense of self esteem? Well that erodes when you age and now I'm getting lipomas? Which are fucking gross and there is no cure? Therapists can say what they like but I have no control over medical issues? They can't cure this and I don't want to live with it.
guess I'm just ranting I'm sad and I love my dog and my fiancé. My mum won't remember as she has dementia, so it's all good.
My only sense of self esteem? Well that erodes when you age and now I'm getting lipomas? Which are fucking gross and there is no cure? Therapists can say what they like but I have no control over medical issues? They can't cure this and I don't want to live with it.
guess I'm just ranting I'm sad and I love my dog and my fiancé. My mum won't remember as she has dementia, so it's all good.