death137
miserable
- Jun 25, 2020
- 1,166
So there is a holiday (new year) coming in my country in 12 days time. Ever since I became actively suicidal I hated holidays especially new year. Large part of me wants to end it before that day. But a small part of me wants to end it shortly after the day for the sake of not ruining it for my family. I want to do what I really want but I'm feeling guilt by it. Any thought?