CTB as a transsexual woman

[lanadelreyisgod223]

Basically i'm a 20 year old transsexual woman who was absolutely nuked by puberty to the point of never being able to pass as a real woman, because of this I know i'll always be suicidal and will never have a good quality of life. On the other hand, i know if i were to CTB and people from my university all knew about it, many of them would definitely meme and celebrate bc another mentally ill transsexual committed.

 

[Reishi]

As a transwoman , I get it... I don't exactly look like the peak example of a woman but I know that with time and progress with hrt and other trans related healthcare I can look much more like how I want.

 

[iveseenfootage]

your life is yours alone, never make decisions like whether or not to ctb based on what people might think.

 

[lanadelreyisgod223]

your life is yours alone, never make decisions like whether or not to ctb based on what people might think.

i'm worried i just might be another statistic of transsexual suicides + whenever a transsexual woman specifically chooses to CTB, the people who hate us genuinely laugh and celebrate. it just makes me wanna live out of spite to them.

 

[Deepdense]

What makes you believe they would celebrate?

 

[vira]

many of them would definitely meme and celebrate bc another mentally ill transsexual committed.

good thing you wouldn't be able to witness that lol

and if you believe in heaven or whatever then theyd go to hell regardless. win-win

What makes you believe they would celebrate?

dude if you live in a red state and are remotely left or look left leaning, everyone celebrates your failures. especially in the us. nobody even hides it lol. coming from someone who has watched it happen everywhere where i live

 

[Lost.Empyrean]

i'm worried i just might be another statistic of transsexual suicides + whenever a transsexual woman specifically chooses to CTB, the people who hate us genuinely laugh and celebrate. it just makes me wanna live out of spite to them.

they'll do that regardless of what you choose to do, so ultimately just do whatever you think is best. To be blunt I wouldn't focus on how those people would respond to whatever your decision is because I don't really see any real value in them. Like, as people. their opinions on anything are entirely worthless.

Transitioning is such a long process and it takes so much time and effort, outside of the struggle that comes with being trans, do you still want to be alive? like if you could find contentment with yourself theoretically what would you do? would you still ctb or would you do something else?

 

[BradGuy123]

Basically i'm a 20 year old transsexual woman who was absolutely nuked by puberty to the point of never being able to pass as a real woman, because of this I know i'll always be suicidal and will never have a good quality of life. On the other hand, i know if i were to CTB and people from my university all knew about it, many of them would definitely meme and celebrate bc another mentally ill transsexual committed.

I'm cis myself, so I don't know firsthand what you are feeling. I do want to say that I'm a trans ally. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I live in a big city, and I do know there is a large transgender community here. I hope you can find some transgender friends in your city or if you live in a small town maybe there is some kind of online community. I don't think you are mentally ill. You were born trans.