Discussion Crazy or Logic

[hatedanddestroyed]

I see ctb as the only solution for me. Here's a little background:
Wife left and took the kids- one of which she gave birth to and didn't tell me.
I've been inlove with her since we met.
This is my second marriage and now I've a total of 6 kids, none of which I get to see because of mother's rights but have to pay child support.
My heart is absolutely shattered.
I've got no reason to continue.
I'm tired of hurting so damn much.
I've attempted multiple times but have failed so far.
The one time people found out I lost friends and others just got mad at me.

Here's the question: Am I crazy or logical?

 

[Foresight]

Your exes are doing more damage to everyone involved than they will ever know. My heart goes out to you. Your pain is valid and you're not crazy. I feel for your children too. What an unfair situation.

I remember this topic on reddit where a woman was told all her life by her mother that her father abandoned her. In adulthood she met someone at the grocery store she worked at that was close friends with her father. The friend let the woman know her father killed himself and he actually had the suicide note. The father couldn't get the note to his daughter because of custody issues, the mother moving without disclosing location, all that kind of stuff. The story was a little far-fetched but I believe it. Her whole reddit profile was just this trauma and her trying to work her way through this devastating situation. She said the note was him letting loose about all the pain he was in after she was taken from him. He couldn't find any hope in life after his daughter was ripped away from him. It really messed his daughter up all those years later.

 

[hatedanddestroyed]

You exes are doing more damage to everyone involved than they will ever know. My heart goes out to you. Your pain is valid and you're not crazy. I feel for your children too. What an unfair situation.

I remember this topic on reddit where a woman was told all her life by her mother that her father abandoned her. In adulthood she met someone at the grocery store she worked at that was close friends with her father. The friend let the woman know her father killed himself and he actually had the suicide note. The father couldn't get the note to his daughter because of custody issues, the mother moving without disclosing location, all that kind of stuff. The story was a little far-fetched but I believe it. Her whole reddit profile was just this trauma and her trying to work her way through this devastating situation. She said the note was him letting loose about all the pain he was in after she was taken from him. He couldn't find any hope in life after his daughter was ripped away from him. It really messed his daughter up all those years later.

Thank you

 

[ThriveOrDie]

Similar thing happened to my bf. He never got over it and ctb 3 years ago. I met him 9 years after his divorce. He was a family man. He missed his kids so much. Left a huge hole in his heart.

You're definitely not crazy OP.

 

[hatedanddestroyed]

Similar thing happened to my bf. He never got over it and ctb 3 years ago. I met him 9 years after his divorce. He was a family man. He missed his kids so much. Left a huge hole in his heart.

You're definitely not crazy OP.

Thank you. I hate feeling crazy all the time.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course you are not crazy. I'm sorry you are in this situation, I know that it is hard to carry on when you are in so much pain. It sounds like you are going through a lot. This life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.