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21Neberg
Enlightened
- Dec 17, 2018
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Hello everyone. I hope you have some advice for me. I will try to keep it short.
I tried to hang myself last week. Before that, I sent my two 'closest' friends a text thanking them for being my friends. They responded with questionmarks and asked if they should be worried. That was last week.
I tend to isolate myself, however one of those friends has organized a party tomorrow. I have to go, it's for his birthday. I hate going there for many reasons, but what I need help with is their questions. I have no doubt in my mind that they'll ask me about it(me thanking them for being my friends and then not saying anything), and I have no clue what I should say to them.
They're not true friends I think, because I think they'd treat me differently or speak to me even less if I was honest with them about my struggles. So should I try to lie to them then? Or should I just give in to my social anxiety, and say I'm sick tomorrow? It's a party full of people who I don't like and who sometimes make jokes about me... I don't know what to do. Sorry for the unorganized rant I guess.
I tried to hang myself last week. Before that, I sent my two 'closest' friends a text thanking them for being my friends. They responded with questionmarks and asked if they should be worried. That was last week.
I tend to isolate myself, however one of those friends has organized a party tomorrow. I have to go, it's for his birthday. I hate going there for many reasons, but what I need help with is their questions. I have no doubt in my mind that they'll ask me about it(me thanking them for being my friends and then not saying anything), and I have no clue what I should say to them.
They're not true friends I think, because I think they'd treat me differently or speak to me even less if I was honest with them about my struggles. So should I try to lie to them then? Or should I just give in to my social anxiety, and say I'm sick tomorrow? It's a party full of people who I don't like and who sometimes make jokes about me... I don't know what to do. Sorry for the unorganized rant I guess.