Venting Couldn't get ingredients

[Littlewittlelight]

Today I want to 40-50 shops and asked people in person for SN,meto and propranolol. I could only got 2 strips of meto at first one I was only given one strip they said come again later for second so I didn't ask again and at the second shop in the end I was asked how many I need because of the first incident I said one I feel like a dumb and some people got angry or rose eyebrow. People here are this way. I saw some sources for SN online and one was from a famous e-commerce I think I could trust it and I would connect with someone to make sure or confirm if it's reliable I hope I order online I wanted to get in person because there would be no history or noone would be able to create drama if they received instead of me if I ordered online but now I have no chance even if it's a counterfeit or not as pure as they say but before that I met some people they just kept giving directions but at the given address or in direction I found nothing they again gave direction I felt disappointed but I met 3-4 good people who helped me and one even said I could just go to them for info again when I asked and they said if they had it they would give me but they only sold in big bags which were not pure and before and they also gave it to students but I needed pure and they didn't even have it but it still is a hope and about Bezos I saw one source I don't remember will check again I could trust it once or get prescription once I hope I could wait for a while now I am just laying and waiting for my day that's all. I don't want to become a normal adult I am happy going from this place I feel it was a curse to be born in this place I won't blame I will say it's just me cus it really is me but there is no problem in going when I want I am just so tired. Sorry for this long post but I am feeling numb again and I feel bad when I go out and put myself in these situations.

 

[Iamchickenhat]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard go of it. I bought my sn from the e commerce site and it was pure, as far as the fish tank test strip can tell. I'm glad you got meto. If you're doing a stat dose those 2 strips should be enough right?

I wish you the best outcome for you. I wish you peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds frustrating what you are going through. It's unfair how planning suicide is so unnecessarily difficult and complicated. I understand being tired of everything, I wish you relief from your suffering.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard go of it. I bought my sn from the e commerce site and it was pure, as far as the fish tank test strip can tell. I'm glad you got meto. If you're doing a stat dose those 2 strips should be enough right?

I wish you the best outcome for you. I wish you peace.

Yes it was so hard. I hope I get it somehow I just want this I am not even asking for hapiness or anything. I am asking for this but they wouldn't even give me this and I am college student I also think of sneaking into college laboratory or somewhere so whatever or I hope I will find a way
Wouldn't it be enough for 48 regime also?
Thank your for your reply.

That sounds frustrating what you are going through. It's unfair how planning suicide is so unnecessarily difficult and complicated. I understand being tired of everything, I wish you relief from your suffering.

It really is unfair I am not even asking for N just SN and maybe I am ready to bear a little pain for a while I thought I would just hang myself a few days ago but now I don't know where it is. It's gone I think and in the back of my mind for back up but I deserve a more peaceful way please it's my final wish and final request from this place or anything I got I never asked for much really. I am really to be punished in hell although I am a atheist just let me out from this place and do anything anyone wants with me after I am out. I wish someone strangled me because I wouldn't choose hanging until I fail or fail to get this SN in my hand. I just wish someone got so mad and strangled me but I also am so afraid of people in real life I start to shake and sweat even while talking when I am outside of home

 

[Lonerzepam]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard go of it. I bought my sn from the e commerce site and it was pure, as far as the fish tank test strip can tell. I'm glad you got meto. If you're doing a stat dose those 2 strips should be enough right?

I wish you the best outcome for you. I wish you peace.

Do I really have to test it even if I ordered from legit source like IC

 

[Iamchickenhat]

Do I really have to test it even if I ordered from legit source like IC

I've never understood who this ic is. I tested it when I got it from the large retailer bc it came from overseas (USA here) and it wasn't in a sealed container, just a plastic bag. So I tested it to be sure. I'm reasonably sure those sealed containers on that website are real