Help Could i give myself sepsis?

[Cyber4ngel!]

I have an urinary infection rn, it begun days ago and I'm not currently treating it, I am in pain, but my mother cbted with sepsis by purposely not treating her urinary infections and another one she had, I love my mom and I want to know if I could go out in her style

(It should be noted that I am in poor health, I have anemia, i smoke, I stopped eating about 4 or 5 days ago, I hardly drink anything, I haven't urinated since yesterday, yesterday I also vomited and today I feel very very very very weak as if I were going to faint soon, I am a little confused and my reflexes are slower than normal, it is difficult for me to speak and write and I have no appetite at all. I read that sepsis can kill you in 24 hours without treatment and my mother died after spending approximately a week without urinating)

Also sorry for the bad English!!

 

[Worndown]

If you can tough it out.
Not a top pick method, but I guess everyone uses what is available.
Best of luck.

 

[four_walls_girl]

Well sepsis is incredibly painful, like possibly extremely 10 on the scale pain. But at that point you'll probably be too delirious and high fevered to feel all of it? Maybe not the best way to go though.

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

If you can tough it out.
Not a top pick method, but I guess everyone uses what is available.
Best of luck.

Unfortunately I don't have many options available and my only other two options at the moment would be to jump in front of the train or jump off a building and I'm worried about traumatizing someone or that my photos will end up on some weird gore page

I also feel that somehow ending up like my mom is rarely symbolic or like a tribute? Idk how to explain it but it just feels right, even if I'm in the same pain as her

Thank you ♡

Well sepsis is incredibly painful, like possibly extremely 10 on the scale pain. But at that point you'll probably be too delirious and high fevered to feel all of it? Maybe not the best way to go though.

It's probably very painful but all my life I was sick very frequently to the point of being close to death, along with chronic pain. Sometimes I feel that there is no point in trying to cure the disease to avoid death if I am going to want to die anyway, besides the fact that my body is honestly trying to kill me and make me sick constantly, I don't remember a single day of my life without pain since I'm 9 years old

If I remember correctly, by the time they forcibly took my mother to the hospital, she was either in a coma or they had her too sedated to even speak and open her eyes.

and when she was about to die she knew what she had (she was a nurse) and she didn't want to say it, surprisingly she acted almost the same as always and continued doing the housework and taking care of me.

Then I found out that she hadn't peed for a week, she had a very advanced infection that turned into sepsis and she had a broken rib, it makes me wonder about how much pain tolerance she had or how much she had to force herself to pretend so that my family wouldn't know anything

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

Update - situation did not improve, my kidneys now hurt like hell, I'm dizzy, I'm still not eating, I have chills all over my body, I hardly pee, it's hard for me to process when people talk to me, I had a fever and I'm getting worse quickly.

I hope I die

 

[Worndown]

That might happen. I hope all goes well for you.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

If you're mother had this you're likely predisposed. But why choose an excructiating method that is not guaranteed and could leave you with long term damage?

 

[cloudyskye]

If you're mother had this you're likely predisposed. But why choose an excructiating method that is not guaranteed and could leave you with long term damage?

Because some people don't care they're in so much pain they just want out.

I have an urinary infection rn, it begun days ago and I'm not currently treating it, I am in pain, but my mother cbted with sepsis by purposely not treating her urinary infections and another one she had, I love my mom and I want to know if I could go out in her style

(It should be noted that I am in poor health, I have anemia, i smoke, I stopped eating about 4 or 5 days ago, I hardly drink anything, I haven't urinated since yesterday, yesterday I also vomited and today I feel very very very very weak as if I were going to faint soon, I am a little confused and my reflexes are slower than normal, it is difficult for me to speak and write and I have no appetite at all. I read that sepsis can kill you in 24 hours without treatment and my mother died after spending approximately a week without urinating)

Also sorry for the bad English!!

I wish you the outcome you desire. I tried this but my immune system was to strong and I recovered. Good luck to you.

 

[suicidaltransgirl]

There was a thread a while ago where someone tried this and it failed. It's a gamble.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Because some people don't care they're in so much pain they just want out.

Um, obviously. But if one wants out, one should pick a more reliable method. If this does not work, then she may have to live with permanent kidney damage.

 

[cloudyskye]

Um, obviously. But if one wants out, one should pick a more reliable method. If this does not work, then she may have to live with permanent kidney damage.

Some people don't have another method that doesn't involve traumatizing others and they don't want to do that.

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

That might happen. I hope all goes well for you.

Thank you

If you're mother had this you're likely predisposed. But why choose an excructiating method that is not guaranteed and could leave you with long term damage?

I agree with this, but honestly I am in so much emotional and physical pain everyday, I'm desperate to finally rest, just like my mother, I'm in a horrible situation rn, I'm homeless, I can't find a job, and I'm currently staying at someone's house just for the moment but they are treating me like shit and my mental health deteriorated a lot, I'm having panic attacks often and I bawl my eyes out everyday and no one cares, no one even cares if I am sick, I lost everything, i blocked all my family members bc that's why in homeless and I don't talk to any of my friends anymore, I'm lonely and I don't have a safe space anymore but at least I think my cat can stay here bc they love him


I can't ctb in the house, and the only two other options I have are via train or jumping off a building, I don't have money to rent an hotel room or buy things to ctb

I have a strong SI and I don't want to traumatize anyone or end up in the internet in a gore site

I'm just hoping this kills me, I want my mom.

Because some people don't care they're in so much pain they just want out.

I wish you the outcome you desire. I tried this but my immune system was to strong and I recovered. Good luck to you.

Honestly I'm in so much pain everyday regardless, my body hurts, my brain hurts, everything hurts and doing drugs is just not helping anymore

I hope I dont recover, at the moment everything is going accordingly, I am in severe pain and it's worsening, I'm keeping an eye in all the new symptoms I get

Thank you ♡