mk47

mk47

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Sep 29, 2019
78
Just picked up my H and I got my benzos already. I could easily exit tonight. Hmmm. This is really a macabre situation. Opening P.O. Boxes and buying stuff online to ctb is surreal, almost nightmarish, and all under my dads nose
 
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Stan

Stan

Factoid Hunter
Aug 29, 2019
2,589
It is a strange feeling when you have everything you need to go. I have a cupboard that I seem to treat like a shrine
 
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mk47

mk47

Member
Sep 29, 2019
78
I think I should go tonight while my mom is away
 
I’vehadenough

I’vehadenough

Elementalist
Sep 15, 2018
847
You better make sure that h is real before trying to ctb with it
 
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Dawn0071111

Hungry Ghost
Dec 9, 2018
570
Im on my pre ctb grind too. .. just make sure your ready.... no need to.rush... if anyone is firm in thier decision to.exit.. then my hope is they have a safe plan...
 
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blackflag1

Experienced
Oct 6, 2019
214
If you are ODing on Heroin, make sure it is real. If it is some of the stuff laced with Carfentanil, you will CTB very easily.
 
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Return2Dust

Return2Dust

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Sep 28, 2019
246
I have my stuff ready to go too. It's strange being so organized and ready while living with a partner who was no clue or doesn't care. Packages arrive from strange places, no questions asked.
 
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blackflag1

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Oct 6, 2019
214
I have my stuff ready to go too. It's strange being so organized and ready while living with a partner who was no clue or doesn't care. Packages arrive from strange places, no questions asked.
May not be that they don't care, they could be respecting your privacy.
 
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Blackjack

Blackjack

I’ll be watching...
Aug 6, 2019
777
I received an email today from my son's U.S. History teacher about meeting with him next Tuesday about my son's grade in his class. How surreal it is to know that I'll be dead on Tuesday and my son's failing grade will suddenly become the least important thing in him or his Dad's life in 4 short days.
 
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blackflag1

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Oct 6, 2019
214
I received an email today from my son's U.S. History teacher about meeting with him next Tuesday about my son's grade in his class. How surreal it is to know that I'll be dead on Tuesday and my son's failing grade will suddenly become the least important thing in him or his Dad's life in 4 short days.

Quite to point. Seems kind of cynical in a way and quite sad. Hopefully they have something left to know the why. At times, the families blame themselves for a loved one's suicide. I hope the journey is one without pain for you. I like your posts on here and you will be missed on here.
 
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I’vehadenough

Elementalist
Sep 15, 2018
847
If you are ODing on Heroin, make sure it is real. If it is some of the stuff laced with Carfentanil, you will CTB very easily.
I'm afraid. Like if I shoot up a gram, will it 100 percent kill me?
 
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blackflag1

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Oct 6, 2019
214
350 mg of real heroin uncut will kill person of average tolerance. If laced with Carfentanil, even less. 1 gram will definitely do the job
 
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Chronicillness

Chronicillness

Experienced
Jun 19, 2018
236
I unintentionally overdosed on clonazepam and black tar heroin back when I was an active opiophile. It was an extremely peaceful and seamless transition into a deep slumber. I was sitting upright in a chair fighting with all my might to keep my eyes open. Next thing I know I am being violently tossed about by a group of adults in an attempt to wake me. If I had fallen asleep on my back or had been left unperturbed I would have died that day.
 
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Blackjack

Blackjack

I’ll be watching...
Aug 6, 2019
777
If you are ODing on Heroin, make sure it is real. If it is some of the stuff laced with Carfentanil, you will CTB very easily.
OK so now you're an expert on Heroin ODing?
350 mg of real heroin uncut will kill person of average tolerance. If laced with Carfentanil, even less. 1 gram will definitely do the job
Oh so expert speaks again. All hail the all knowing!
Just picked up my H and I got my benzos already. I could easily exit tonight. Hmmm. This is really a macabre situation. Opening P.O. Boxes and buying stuff online to ctb is surreal, almost nightmarish, and all under my dads nose
So is tonight still your night?
 
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blackflag1

Experienced
Oct 6, 2019
214
OK so now you're an expert on Heroin ODing?

Oh so expert speaks again. All hail the all knowing!

So is tonight still your night?
Hallelujah to the all knowing, but I never made the claim I am he. If you must know I have seen plenty of Heroin ODs. Pretty common in my neck of the woods. If he takes a gram of real Heroin, he is most certainly dead. Isn't there some Pentobarbital you plan on taking soon? If you are so miserable to feel the need to continue to attack, go ahead and make your move. Get it done with and end your suffering.
 
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Blackjack

Blackjack

I’ll be watching...
Aug 6, 2019
777
Hallelujah to the all knowing, but I never made the claim I am he. If you must know I have seen plenty of Heroin ODs. Pretty common in my neck of the woods. If he takes a gram of real Heroin, he is most certainly dead. Isn't there some Pentobarbital you plan on taking soon? If you are so miserable to feel the need to continue to attack, go ahead and make your move. Get it done with and end your suffering.
Yep I'm going soon. But not before you're called out on all your BS postings. I got nothing but time between now & Monday night. Game on.
 
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blackflag1

Experienced
Oct 6, 2019
214
Yep I'm going soon. But not before you're called out on all your BS postings. I got nothing but time between now & Monday night. Game on.
I welcome the game, but I doubt you will be able to call me out. I feel for you and know the suffering of ALS. I know why you made your decision and it is a good one. I would not wish that affliction on any fellow human being. I am certainly glad to give you a final sense of purpose, but seriously, know this, I wish nothing but the best for you.
 
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Blackjack

Blackjack

I’ll be watching...
Aug 6, 2019
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I welcome the game, but I doubt you will be able to call me out. I feel for you and know the suffering of ALS. I know why you made your decision and it is a good one. I would not wish that affliction on any fellow human being. I am certainly glad to give you a final sense of purpose, but seriously, know this, I wish nothing but the best for you.
You forgot you also hope my son doesn't kill himself after I do.
 
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blackflag1

Experienced
Oct 6, 2019
214
You forgot you also hope my son doesn't kill himself after I do.
Absolutely, he is young and I presume in good health. I do not wish for him to fall into a darkness that causes him to pursue the same path if he is not afflicted with same degree of suffering you are going through. I hope that he understands you made the best choice given your circumstances and that it is in no way his fault. I hope he knows how much you love him and that you want him to enjoy life to the fullest that he is capable. I know you are capable of choosing your path and minimizing any damage to him. That is no bullshit posting either.
 
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Blackjack

Blackjack

I’ll be watching...
Aug 6, 2019
777
Absolutely, he is young and I presume in good health. I do not wish for him to fall into a darkness that causes him to pursue the same path if he is not afflicted with same degree of suffering you are going through. I hope that he understands you made the best choice given your circumstances and that it is in no way his fault. I hope he knows how much you love him and that you want him to enjoy life to the fullest that he is capable. I know you are capable of choosing your path and minimizing any damage to him. That is no bullshit posting either.
If you bothered to learn my backstory before posting unsolicited advice, you'd be able to answer your own questions. But you're too busy posting pep-talks and platitudes to be aware of anyone else's situation. You have been breathing too much of your own exhaust for far too long. It's called narcissism and alcoholics possess it in spades.
 
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blackflag1

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Oct 6, 2019
214
If you bothered to learn my backstory before posting unsolicited advice, you'd be able to answer your own questions. But you're too busy posting pep-talks and platitudes to be aware of anyone else's situation. You have been breathing too much of your own exhaust for far too long. It's called narcissism and alcoholics possess it in spades.
I don't recall posting advise. I recall agreeing with where you said you were not going to post a goodbye post. I also recall posting about quality time of your choosing. It looks like you have chosen your quality time and I have no problem facilitating it, supporting you in your well informed decision and hoping for nothing but the best for you. Blanket statements in regard to alcoholics do not help the matters at hand and like blanket statements or stereotypes are fraught with inaccuracies.
 
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