Help Could Ativan make hanging more "peaceful"?

[Bread]

I apologize if this is a stupid question or if this has been asked and answered before.

Basically, I still live with my parents due to chronic illness and don't have a driver's license. I live in a relatively rural area and am too physically weak to walk to a store for supplies. Because I can only use what's around the house, hanging is pretty much the only method I have access to. I have tried partial but couldn't get myself to pass out and the exploding head feeling was very uncomfortable. However, I do have prescriptions for Ativan and Inderal, both drugs that are known to be calming and sedating (Ativan much more than Inderal). I hardly ever take the Ativan so I have a very low tolerance to it. Also just 20mg of Inderal makes me very faint due to low blood pressure, so if I took more I could probably make myself pass out easily. I believe I could stockpile these medications with relative ease, though I probably already have all the Inderal I need.

My rudimentary plan would be to take some Ativan and Inderal to steady my nerves while I get the rope ready. Then I would stand on the chair with the rope around my neck and continue to take more Ativan until I get really sedated or pass out. When it reaches that point I would either jump off/kick over the chair or fall off due to unconsciousness. Hopefully this would make me unaware of the hanging or at least less aware.

 

[Toenditall]

I haven't heard of any of these before but if they make you very faint I don't see why they wouldn't work you'll just have to make sure the rope is in the right position before you get to faint

 

[Jiva]

It is ideal use a very shaky support, for easy activation (an empty barrel, a gymnastic ball, stack of books), i think.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I doubt it would hurt, but Ativan typically makes me feel tranquilized and indifferent to problems-with a little sedative effect. So I don't know how much it would help either.

 

[Tyuiop]

i would advise against ativan, it can make your actions very unpredictable and you can end up in the hospital with no memory of what happened. The best way would be just to take something so you're calm and do the final action yourself. Full hanging is supposed to make you pass out fast anyway.

 

[Arak]

IMO, if you manage to execute a full hanging/suspension without leaving yourself a way out (climbing up etc.) Ativan might help a bit at high doses (tolerance!). Combo of that and an opiate might be even better.

 

[BjartNO]

I'm going to eat Xanax before. At the very least it will reduce general anxiety a bit.
I guess I doubt it will ever make the ordeal as easy as "falling into sleep", however.

 

[Bread]

Thank you everyone for your input. I'll take your advice into account. (: I have little idea of how much Ativan I would need or how it would make me feel, so I will definitely do some more research before I commit to this plan.