Coping with grief...

[Lowell]

Hi, again.

I'm sorry, but I feel all alone even if I have company at home. My dog, my love, my baby, passed away on Thursday, after a hard fight for her health.

She meant everything to me, I've crying rivers for her, and it is so hard to keep with my day.

Even if I wanted to go with her, I'm such a coward to do anything. But also I have zero motivation to do any other shit.

I feel a big hole inside me, I started eating again, and kind of sleeping. The past week was a rollercoaster of feelings.

I'm just sad right now... And I don't want to keep feeling like this, like shit. Because it starts giving me anxiety, like the feelng of peeling myself of my own skin.

I'm sorry to come here with this, but I feel comfortable when I'm here.

 

[Jadeith]

I'm sorry to come here with this

Please, don't be. After all, that's what this part of the forum is for. Offering virtual hug. I know it's not much of a consolation but unfortunately, can't provide real one.
Losing a friend is always painful. Especially when it was very close friend and dogs, with their virtually unconditional love and devotion, take enormous part of one's heart when they go over the rainbow.