Cope?

[blitzk]

I want to be happy, yet haven't found the right thing. Whatever i choose I always fuck up, I feel like a disturbance to people. I feel...always regretting, doubting, blaming and **always ashamed** of myself. I just want to be happy. Have someone, but each day i just want to end it all. I am a coward, and attempted multiple times but all failed or I cowarded out.