grandmotherboxing
glorp
- Jun 22, 2024
- 43
Timeline: Person thinks I am a cool friend. We VC for the first time.
He talks, I wait my turn and then talk, then we go back and forth, it's fun, then awkward silence.
Then jokes about me being autistic when I like some things that are more cerebral or obscure (i hate that word so muuuuuch.) Then we go on, then awkward silence from a person again because i talked too much (idk what an overstep is in this regard, i just know a lot of things on a topic they brought up and have to say them or i'll lose my thought. It's sometimes important to me). Then i ask why the awkward silence enthusiastically and jokingly, and the joking response is that i talk too much and i just idk. Then I feel bad, I ask for straightforwardness and clarity as to why how what and i get back and forth jokes. Then I get pissy and leave the VC, the person tries to make amends... but it feels like everything I say makes it worse. Most likely: I'm either gonna be handicapped in their eyes, or I'm gonna lose them.
This is a pattern I've experienced countless times.
I hate neurotypicals so much it's unreal.
He talks, I wait my turn and then talk, then we go back and forth, it's fun, then awkward silence.
Then jokes about me being autistic when I like some things that are more cerebral or obscure (i hate that word so muuuuuch.) Then we go on, then awkward silence from a person again because i talked too much (idk what an overstep is in this regard, i just know a lot of things on a topic they brought up and have to say them or i'll lose my thought. It's sometimes important to me). Then i ask why the awkward silence enthusiastically and jokingly, and the joking response is that i talk too much and i just idk. Then I feel bad, I ask for straightforwardness and clarity as to why how what and i get back and forth jokes. Then I get pissy and leave the VC, the person tries to make amends... but it feels like everything I say makes it worse. Most likely: I'm either gonna be handicapped in their eyes, or I'm gonna lose them.
This is a pattern I've experienced countless times.
I hate neurotypicals so much it's unreal.
