Venting Constantly feeling like its gonna be easier to just end it

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The more time Im around the more I just want to get murdered so its easier to 'explain' than killing yourself. I really fucking hate it lately, Ive been constantly stressed out because no matter the smallest inconvinience will end the day. I feel like Im taking care of a child and I dont know if it would be worse than constantly having to walk around eggshells and needing to fucking act like a housewhore just for cleaning and sex Im done thinking that its the way to go Im fucking tired of it
I feel more closed than at home I just feel like the only way to escape it is killing myself and leaving the floors covered in blood