ctbgurl
Member
- Jan 24, 2023
- 49
Over the years of my life my conversations with my therapists/psychiatrists have been monitored by the people who traumatized me growing up and it's eating me alive. To see my therapist acting as if they're good people simply makes me want to vomit. I stay silent but inside it's consuming me, and it's one of the many reasons I want to CTB. I feel that no one will ever be able to truly understand or help me because i'm always accompanied to my appointments. Whether it's in person or over the phone, someone is there or listening from the other room. I can't say what I need to say so I remain inanimate and emotionless. There's no hope for me.