Venting Considering self-immolation, attempting VSED

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm struggling with VSED. When I was walking home today I thought about self-immolation, it would make a statement.

Probably mostly a vent, I hope nobody has to die these ways.

 

[ewigeruhe]

I thought about this also but i came to the conclusion that the risk to be saved and suffer even more after that is way too high and the pain of the act alone would be excruciating.

 

[whatstheporpoise15]

I thought about this also but i came to the conclusion that the risk to be saved and suffer even more after that is way too high and the pain of the act alone would be excruciating.

Being burned and surviving is one of my biggest fears. Recovery is long and agonizing and there's pain that never really goes away. You'll always have to have surgeries, even years later. Turia Pitt is one of the most badass people on the planet (look her up), but even she continues to deal with so much from her burns.

 

[ojinzo]

I'm struggling with VSED. When I was walking home today I thought about self-immolation, it would make a statement.

Probably mostly a vent, I hope nobody has to die these ways.

I was literally googling it today. Well, I typed in setting myself on fire but I learned the technical term for it. I'm so sorry you have opted for VSED as I've read that that is hard. But it makes sense considering you considered immolation because both require a level of not fearing pain. I tried to order n, but I think I was scammed. I accept that and have accepted that I do not have the luxury of leaving this planet peacefully so I need to accept the pain that comes with other methods.

I thought about this also but i came to the conclusion that the risk to be saved and suffer even more after that is way too high and the pain of the act alone would be excruciating.

I reached the same conclusion

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I tried to order n, but I think I was scammed.

Damn, I'm so sorry to hear that :(

I walked 5 miles today. Part of me just wants to walk and never come back - combine with VSED + hypothermia. But I couldn't thinking of all the useless ways to attempt.

Jump in front of car(bad), eat random shrooms & poisonous flowers(bad), use a defib on myself(bad). Then I passed a gas station and I thought, I'm struggling with other methods what about self-immolation. Also drinking petrol(bad).

I might end up doing it because it might easier than the alternatives. Putting up with my family or going to citizens advice about them.

I missed a call from police. I wish she would ring back. It would make me feel less suicidal, I think.

I'm thinking about going for a random walk. I'm having random suicidal thoughts. I want to walk myself to death somehow. I wish that was possible.

I was a little afraid coming home today- I didn't know if anything would be waiting for me.

 

[ewigeruhe]

Damn, I'm so sorry to hear that :(

I walked 5 miles today. Part of me just wants to walk and never come back - combine with VSED + hypothermia. But I couldn't thinking of all the useless ways to attempt.

Jump in front of car(bad), eat random shrooms & poisonous flowers(bad), use a defib on myself(bad). Then I passed a gas station and I thought, I'm struggling with other methods what about self-immolation. Also drinking petrol(bad).

I might end up doing it because it might easier than the alternatives. Putting up with my family or going to citizens advice about them.

I missed a call from police. I wish she would ring back. It would make me feel less suicidal, I think.

I'm thinking about going for a random walk. I'm having random suicidal thoughts. I want to walk myself to death somehow. I wish that was possible.

I was a little afraid coming home today- I didn't know if anything would be waiting for me.

lol i randomely check out tracks i could walk into nowhere or a holiday in the sahara wouldn't be too painfull to die of thirst there i think.
But no matter what i can't overcome my general apathy so i just rot slowly away in my apartment.

 

[TAW122]

I think the pain and SI would be too powerful when it comes to burns and the consequence of surviving such an attempt is catastrophic and may result in serious disability (loss of nerves endings due to burns, loss of limb function, etc.) and not to mention the additional suffering from the burn aftermath (physical scars and needing skin grafts).

 

[Judy Garland]

lol i randomely check out tracks i could walk into nowhere or a holiday in the sahara wouldn't be too painfull to die of thirst there i think.
But no matter what i can't overcome my general apathy so i just rot slowly away in my apartment.

I am slowly rotting away in my apartment too. I have nothing to live for. There is no reason why I should still be here. Others want my pain, and I can't hold on. I can't do this much longer.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, self immolation sounds like the worst method. People should not have to die in such horrifying ways. I have not considered VSED as it sounds like a slow and difficult method, I would rather the dying process be over quickly, but I understand the feeling of being desperate to leave and having no other methods. Suicide should be easier and a peaceful death should be a human right. It is sad how so many people have to resort to awful and risky methods to end their suffering. Life is just so unfair.

 

[ewigeruhe]

I can't do this much longer.

same

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I think that self immolation hurts very much. When hold my hand into a fire I can only stand it for seconds. There are better methods to kill oneself.

 

[london3]

Burning yourself is one of the most painful ways to die. You will be in agony for a long time and i hope no one attempts it.

According to lostallhope you will take an hour to die and will be in the worst pain imaginable so do not attempt it.

Most lethal methods of suicide | Lost All Hope: The web's leading suicide resource

Information on most lethal methods of suicide, and how they have been ranked in terms of pain. Plus info on things to consider before trying popular methods.

lostallhope.com

 

[annique]

i don't think i can carry VSED long enough to kill myself, starving is painful
self-immolation is even worse imo

i'm currently considering drowning, jumping and hanging

 

[Adrenalineaddict]

I feel the same way I have no access to a reliable or peaceful method and I have been suicidal for many years, since I was about seven. I think there are probably a fair few of us on this site, especially with some governments cracking down on SN. I am going back and forth on the idea of doing a water fast, no food just water and then keep going until I'm gone, but that could take more than a month. I live by strict ethical beliefs which forbid me from using jumping or jumping in front of a train as a method too. I have been doing research into using methylated spirits as a method, perhaps one day soon I will try it. I want to try and document it somehow on this site, so that those with no reliable methods to hand will be able to have peace too. It has a very, very bitter taste though, I don't know if I will be able to handle drinking the full amount when the day comes.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I read that self-immolation has a not low survival rate. That's kind of scary because I don't want to survive.

What would be the best way to increase the chances of death? I assume if I construct a large enough fire pit and tether myself to it, so that I don't wander out and cause unintended fires, and attempt in an isolated area, that would be sufficient to die from the environment even if I survive the burns? I don't think it guarantees death or non-intervention though.

I was reading some posts and wondered about death by wildlife (or wildfire, but I don't want to cause one or make someone have to rescue me from one). I wonder what animal would be the most likely to inflict lethal injuries. I know crocodiles kill a lot of people (relatively, it's nowhere near the amount killed by human murders), but it seems random and I feel bad giving one a taste for humans since a lot of humans bully crocodiles. The advantage of death by wildlife is it may not be viewed as suicide, which matters to me. If there was a starving animal then feeding it and dying at the same time doesn't seem so bad.

Another way to die without being consumed necessarily might be by snake or scorpion venom. Although when I think about it, not leaving a body behind is nice. Nobody would miss me anyway, so to vanish without a trace is nice.

Anyway, just thinking about it since I might ctb soon if nothing changes and things just get worse.

 

[disillusion]

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This is not for everyone but this viet monk did self immolation as a protest and according to the witnesses he didnt show sign of pain or emotions. But thats because he has mediated all his life. He didnt ctb due to problem but to make some statement for national issues yet it stil really amazes me.


There are many articles that covered this and i read some but dont know which to link so I am just putting wiki
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thích_Quảng_Đức

 

[RTDTD]

I read that self-immolation has a not low survival rate. That's kind of scary because I don't want to survive.

What would be the best way to increase the chances of death? I assume if I construct a large enough fire pit and tether myself to it, so that I don't wander out and cause unintended fires, and attempt in an isolated area, that would be sufficient to die from the environment even if I survive the burns? I don't think it guarantees death or non-intervention though.

I was reading some posts and wondered about death by wildlife (or wildfire, but I don't want to cause one or make someone have to rescue me from one). I wonder what animal would be the most likely to inflict lethal injuries. I know crocodiles kill a lot of people (relatively, it's nowhere near the amount killed by human murders), but it seems random and I feel bad giving one a taste for humans since a lot of humans bully crocodiles. The advantage of death by wildlife is it may not be viewed as suicide, which matters to me. If there was a starving animal then feeding it and dying at the same time doesn't seem so bad.

Another way to die without being consumed necessarily might be by snake or scorpion venom. Although when I think about it, not leaving a body behind is nice. Nobody would miss me anyway, so to vanish without a trace is nice.

Anyway, just thinking about it since I might ctb soon if nothing changes and things just get worse.

Honestly what you choose to do is your choice but if I have to say out of all the methods you could choose immolation is pretty much the most painful. If you did though covering yourself in gasoline would be the best not a fire pit. But that's not to mention if you do survive you'd be covered in painful burns for the rest of whatever life you have after that.

I can understand there maybe aren't a lot of options where you are, but I would think hanging would be a better solution seeing as almost nowhere rope isn't available and if you do it from a high enough point you'll snap your neck.

Best of luck