rosetrapped
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- Dec 17, 2019
- 10
I know that this is going to be a very painful method, likely involve vomit and cramping etc. I also know that it's going to take a while and the success rate isn't very high, but my only other alternative is cutting wrists which I feel is even less effective. I cannot access SN in the U.K, I'm 18 and I also live with my mum and 4 younger siblings. I have severe anxiety which prevents me from leaving the house much, even going into shops. I don't drive. Luckily there is a large supply of paracetamol in my house, and if I were to stash up and take 50 tablets I'm sure this would end my life, if slowly and painfully I don't mind. If anyone has any advice on this method to make it more effective pls reply, I've read that taking a large dose over 3 days or more could actually be more efficient than just taking a massive dose at once. Other suggestions of methods that are accessible to someone in my position would be helpful too. I might take the overdose and then cut my wrists so I have more chance. I usually have at least 16 hours per day where no one will check on me so it should be enough time.
I am constantly in pain, I have so much shit going round my head and my thoughts are relentless. You reach a point where self-harm doesn't even help anymore. I'm young but I have been through a lot of trauma.
My mum was very upset because I have been depressed and anxious for a long time, so I tried to seek help from my GP about 2 months ago, so I could try for her sake, was referred to CMHT(community mental health team)for an assessment where I explained how I self harm regularly, want to die and have experienced the same anxiety and low mood, worsening since I was 13, to be sent away with an emergency phone number and an 18 week waiting list for counselling...
I really, truly don't believe things can get better for me. I've written suicide notes for individual family members and close friends, I just need to plan out how to do it. Thanks for reading anyways x
I am constantly in pain, I have so much shit going round my head and my thoughts are relentless. You reach a point where self-harm doesn't even help anymore. I'm young but I have been through a lot of trauma.
My mum was very upset because I have been depressed and anxious for a long time, so I tried to seek help from my GP about 2 months ago, so I could try for her sake, was referred to CMHT(community mental health team)for an assessment where I explained how I self harm regularly, want to die and have experienced the same anxiety and low mood, worsening since I was 13, to be sent away with an emergency phone number and an 18 week waiting list for counselling...
I really, truly don't believe things can get better for me. I've written suicide notes for individual family members and close friends, I just need to plan out how to do it. Thanks for reading anyways x