ladolcemorte
Experienced
- May 5, 2019
- 286
I am currently staying at my parents' house. Tomorrow they are going for lunch and there is a flight to the city that hosts my suicide bridge at 2pm. (I went to the bridge last year and made it over the railing but then a "good samaritan" physically intercepted me).
I'm thinking I should be able to board the flight before my parents notice I am missing, but since they are aware of the previous attempt and of my state of mind (I was recently in the hospital for 2 months), they might figure out where I've gone and send police to the bridge or to the airport in the bridge city.
I'm not in very good shape physically (I have a cane due to numbness in my legs that the Drs think is MS) so I don't imagine it would be very hard for the police to catch me, and given my history I would have a hard time explaining my presence on the bridge. Also, if I fly out there and fail, I will be out about $1000, and I will have a heck of a time coming up with the money to go again....
On the other hand, I really feel like I need to get out of here NOW, so maybe it is worth the risk....
I'm thinking I should be able to board the flight before my parents notice I am missing, but since they are aware of the previous attempt and of my state of mind (I was recently in the hospital for 2 months), they might figure out where I've gone and send police to the bridge or to the airport in the bridge city.
I'm not in very good shape physically (I have a cane due to numbness in my legs that the Drs think is MS) so I don't imagine it would be very hard for the police to catch me, and given my history I would have a hard time explaining my presence on the bridge. Also, if I fly out there and fail, I will be out about $1000, and I will have a heck of a time coming up with the money to go again....
On the other hand, I really feel like I need to get out of here NOW, so maybe it is worth the risk....