considering ctb?

[yeaimhere13]

im sad so i wrote out the names of everyone who has ever attributed anything good to my life, including love to my family and friends i've considered family. i don't know why, i've never done something like this, but it at least says that the concept of ctb is floating in my mind somewhere. has anyone else played with the idea of possibly ctb (when they felt like they would never actually do it) by writing letters out, making videos explaining why, selling personal belongings or even just writing names down like me?

 

[derpyderpins]

I still do. I've been very introspective over the past year+, but I have a lot of started goodbye letters from earlier in life where I tried to write out and explain things, including how even though it might be a shock it was a long time coming.

Now I know I'll never kill myself, but I still do that type of introspection. It's just more about self discovery and coping with this existence than actually ending it, but it looks similar: remembering everything that's happened, important memories that developed my psyche, people and places I hadn't thought of in a while. It's a lot of shedding things that aren't important.

So yeah, I understand.

 

[ma0]

I've known that I'm going to kill myself for a while, and I've also figured out who I'll say goodbye to. Occasionally, I find myself drafting notes to people I love, or even a thread for this forum. So yeah, I know the feeling well.

 

[Octo]

I think writing out notes or recording videos is a good idea. Worst case scenario, you CTB and have something to leave people. Best case scenario it provides some focused introspection and maybe makes hanging on a bit easier. Or maybe it helps you feel at peace with the decision to CTB. Regardless, it's not a bad idea.