ExitTheDay
We fight to live or live to die
- May 26, 2019
- 336
Ayo SS
Today my mother showed up out of nowhere, it was weird and I did not expect that at fucking all, I had to do a double-take to see if it was actually her who was walking towards me and my brother, I thought it was the sleep deprivation and I was seeing shit but I was not. Her first words to us were "you two just dont learn do you". Learn what exactly? Learn that this family is fucking shit, and only cares about themselves? Because that's what I'm learning from all of this.
She also told me that in order for the family to help us out we need to start working, we both currently have jobs but are on leave - how the fuck are you supposed to work with 0 hours of sleep? It just cannot happen and it's not normal for human beings to do that, unless they are superman or some shit.
Is she implying we will get some sort of help? I really don't know what they think we expect from them, all we really want is a roof over our heads for at least 2 weeks or so, so we can work and get back on our feet. They think we want them to "support" us and live with them for the rest our lives, so they say and think. I geuss that's the mindset of them though, really shitty huh?
It's been approximately 12 days since I've had any proper sleep, with a few hours of naps in between. I've probably totaled in a good 14 hours of sleep out of 12 days, I don't know how I'm going insane yet, I'm definitely not seeing or hearing shit that isn't there and I've read online that by your 3rd day of no sleep you start to hallucinate and hear things that are not there, it's probably the naps that I'm getting in that are preventing this, maybe I already am and I'm just accustomed to it at this point? Who knows, and who the fuck cares tbh...
Today my mother showed up out of nowhere, it was weird and I did not expect that at fucking all, I had to do a double-take to see if it was actually her who was walking towards me and my brother, I thought it was the sleep deprivation and I was seeing shit but I was not. Her first words to us were "you two just dont learn do you". Learn what exactly? Learn that this family is fucking shit, and only cares about themselves? Because that's what I'm learning from all of this.
She also told me that in order for the family to help us out we need to start working, we both currently have jobs but are on leave - how the fuck are you supposed to work with 0 hours of sleep? It just cannot happen and it's not normal for human beings to do that, unless they are superman or some shit.
Is she implying we will get some sort of help? I really don't know what they think we expect from them, all we really want is a roof over our heads for at least 2 weeks or so, so we can work and get back on our feet. They think we want them to "support" us and live with them for the rest our lives, so they say and think. I geuss that's the mindset of them though, really shitty huh?
It's been approximately 12 days since I've had any proper sleep, with a few hours of naps in between. I've probably totaled in a good 14 hours of sleep out of 12 days, I don't know how I'm going insane yet, I'm definitely not seeing or hearing shit that isn't there and I've read online that by your 3rd day of no sleep you start to hallucinate and hear things that are not there, it's probably the naps that I'm getting in that are preventing this, maybe I already am and I'm just accustomed to it at this point? Who knows, and who the fuck cares tbh...
