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Elementalist
- Nov 11, 2020
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I don't want to suffer anymore or any longer. The only way to do that for me is to die.
So I want to die and have been actively finding ways to die.
A small part of me worries that I'll regret ctb or that I'm being impulsive. Even though I've been wanting to ctb everyday consistently for an absolute minimum of one month.
Im also worried about the pain and trauma I'll leave behind. I'm scared of what's after death. Ughh but I want to die!
It's so confusing and complicated. Anyone else like this? Sometimes it feels like I'm doubting that I want to die but I feel like and kind of know I do?
So I want to die and have been actively finding ways to die.
A small part of me worries that I'll regret ctb or that I'm being impulsive. Even though I've been wanting to ctb everyday consistently for an absolute minimum of one month.
Im also worried about the pain and trauma I'll leave behind. I'm scared of what's after death. Ughh but I want to die!
It's so confusing and complicated. Anyone else like this? Sometimes it feels like I'm doubting that I want to die but I feel like and kind of know I do?