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ryla2090
Student
- Feb 22, 2020
- 101
I.....I'm not sure about what I want to do anymore. I'm feeling really conflicted.
I really don't know what to do anymore.
My life is falling down the drain, that's for sure, but I'm still unsure.
I've had a couple "rescue" attempts from concerned family friends that live in Rome, and each time I fend them off, g, I feel more and more unsure. At this rate, they'll sniff a rat, and then I won't be able to CTB anymore, so if I want to CTB, I have to be REALLY quick, but I'm not sure anymore.
I feel lost, helpless, desperate.
I'm tempted to call my parents, or just anyone really, about what I'm feeling now, and what I have done(I'll be sure not involve you all in this, y'all are genuinely good folks), and just request for aid.
But I'm afraid even if I were to do that, they'll just get angry at me. I did talk about them in the past, multiple times, about this, and they helped me each time. But, I've done this too many times, and I'm afraid that they'll turn away this time.
I want to CTB, so hard, but at the same time, I'm hoping something, someone will stop me.
What should I do in this......situation?
I really, really need answers.
I really don't know what to do anymore.
My life is falling down the drain, that's for sure, but I'm still unsure.
I've had a couple "rescue" attempts from concerned family friends that live in Rome, and each time I fend them off, g, I feel more and more unsure. At this rate, they'll sniff a rat, and then I won't be able to CTB anymore, so if I want to CTB, I have to be REALLY quick, but I'm not sure anymore.
I feel lost, helpless, desperate.
I'm tempted to call my parents, or just anyone really, about what I'm feeling now, and what I have done(I'll be sure not involve you all in this, y'all are genuinely good folks), and just request for aid.
But I'm afraid even if I were to do that, they'll just get angry at me. I did talk about them in the past, multiple times, about this, and they helped me each time. But, I've done this too many times, and I'm afraid that they'll turn away this time.
I want to CTB, so hard, but at the same time, I'm hoping something, someone will stop me.
What should I do in this......situation?
I really, really need answers.