Deleted member 17949
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- May 9, 2020
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I really tried as hard as I could to develop less destructive and more useful habits. I tried to get into a studying routine, start exercising, talk to people more, learn a programming language, go mountain biking and start cooking. I devoted time to these things and made improvements in them, but in the end I've just given up on everything again because nothing makes me happy. I'm struggling to stop myself from sitting in bed doing nothing all day since I just don't have the energy to do anything anymore. I promised myself a few years back that I would definitely change and move past being suicidal, but in reality it's only gotten way worse.
I was just talking to my parents about my future and what I'll do going forward with education, and I realized that everything I was saying was a load of shitty lies. I'm never going to improve myself, I'm going to keep wasting my life because I don't care about anything.
I was just talking to my parents about my future and what I'll do going forward with education, and I realized that everything I was saying was a load of shitty lies. I'm never going to improve myself, I'm going to keep wasting my life because I don't care about anything.