Help Committing in a family home

[lavenderlilylies]

How does one commit at home when they live with children in the house? I don't want them to find or see my body. Doing it at home is more comfortable and safe but it comes with a huge risk.

 

[AkaRed]

Can I ask if they're your children? Or siblings or something?

 

[EmptyBottle]

maybe in a toilet with the door locked? but sound may be a concern.


PS: not suggesting one take or not take actions, just an uncensored reply.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

Can I ask if they're your children? Or siblings or something?

Not mine

maybe in a toilet with the door locked? but sound may be a concern.


PS: not suggesting one take or not take actions, just an uncensored reply.

I'll inevitably be found. I don't know what'll happen in the chaos, so i can't guarantee that they won't see anything

 

[EmptyBottle]

Not mine

I'll inevitably be found. I don't know what'll happen in the chaos, so i can't guarantee that they won't see anything

ooo yes, I didn't think of that. I also have no idea what may happen in the chaos.

 

[AkaRed]

Not mine

I'll inevitably be found. I don't know what'll happen in the chaos, so i can't guarantee that they won't see anything

I'll be honest if it is a genuine concern you may have to consider changing your location. The chances of your CTB permanently traumatizing those children is very high. The best way to minimize it if you do have to be in the home is to choose a less visibly disturbing method, such as SN (typical lol) where they won't really understand the effects of what's going on. That'd be a lot easier for them to cope with than say, walking in on you hanging or something. Choosing a more discreet method would be your best bet if you're set on doing this in your current location. Something adults would understand, but a child might not be able to pick up on as quickly.

Please do consider them though, you have a right to your choices- but it truly isn't fair on them. Best of luck. <3

 

[lavenderlilylies]

I'll be honest if it is a genuine concern you may have to consider changing your location. The chances of your CTB permanently traumatizing those children is very high. The best way to minimize it if you do have to be in the home is to choose a less visibly disturbing method, such as SN (typical lol) where they won't really understand the effects of what's going on. That'd be a lot easier for them to cope with than say, walking in on you hanging or something. Choosing a more discreet method would be your best bet if you're set on doing this in your current location. Something adults would understand, but a child might not be able to pick up on as quickly.

Please do consider them though, you have a right to your choices- but it truly isn't fair on them. Best of luck. <3

I'm conflicted. I don't know how to go about going to another private location. I was considering something public but that's risky, I can't afford being "saved". Another viable option is driving somewhere remote and going to sleep under the seat. I don't know how effective it'll be, but it's safer than all my other ideas.

 

[Ladyybugged]

guess i could say im in the same boat, im about to ctb in my home in a couple days. although i am remorseful that my younger sibling will have to look at my body, part of me doesnt really seem to care anymore. maybe cuz i guess i know that its imminent, and also cuz doing it anywhere else is no longer an option for me.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

guess i could say im in the same boat, im about to ctb in my home in a couple days. although i am remorseful that my younger sibling will have to look at my body, part of me doesnt really seem to care anymore. maybe cuz i guess i know that its imminent, and also cuz doing it anywhere else is no longer an option for me.

I'm very sorry. It's a cruel situation for both of you. Whatever the outcome, I hope you're happy at the end. Hugs <3

 

[AkaRed]

I'm conflicted. I don't know how to go about going to another private location. I was considering something public but that's risky, I can't afford being "saved". Another viable option is driving somewhere remote and going to sleep under the seat. I don't know how effective it'll be, but it's safer than all my other ideas.

Driving out somewhere would be the easier option for sure. I'm sorry you're stuck in this situation man, but I do wish you the best of luck. You have a good heart for considering these sorts of things in the first place.

 

[telekon]

Killing yourself where you know children might witness it is a really terrible thing to do. When children witness suicide, it steals their innocence. You are exposing them to a very adult issue and it steals their innocence and possibly the best years of their lives. It's like when adults expose children to sex via sexual abuse. It's abuse. Plain and simple.

 

[PureEndless]

One day society will be mature enough so that we can finally talk about this. We can talk about desire to die without making the person feel bad, and if they do, it can be away from everyone so no one has to be traumatized.

I know this doesn't help, OP. I'm wishing you the best.

I'm not pro-suicide, just anti-trapping-people in their bodies and not even allowing them to talk about suicide without shaming them and forcing them right back into their life. Because life is abusive to humans too....people who want to die aren't ok and aren't getting their needs met.

Didn't mean to hijack the thread. Just empathizing with everyone.

 

[Liebestod]

I'm probably going to do it in my family home and just not care. There's no children in my house anyway.

 

[Kirkinator]

I'm sorry, but for me involving children in this just seems too much for me. It would traumatize them for sure. I understand where you're coming from but I'm begging you to reconsider.

 

[Greasyhair]

I don't know your locale or financial situation is like, but there must be some sort of motel/hotel/airbnb you could rent for night or two.

I barely managed to talk myself out of jumping off my local school (its only tall building that is easily climbable) so no judgement from me.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

Killing yourself where you know children might witness it is a really terrible thing to do. When children witness suicide, it steals their innocence. You are exposing them to a very adult issue and it steals their innocence and possibly the best years of their lives. It's like when adults expose children to sex via sexual abuse. It's abuse. Plain and simple.

I totally agree. I didn't think everything through before, but now that i did doing it at home is out of the question

I don't know your locale or financial situation is like, but there must be some sort of motel/hotel/airbnb you could rent for night or two.

I barely managed to talk myself out of jumping off my local school (its only tall building that is easily climbable) so no judgement from me.

I could check into a hotel for a day, when I start earning money. It'll be a lot more uncomfortable but definitely a better option