Comfort in ctb

[Crows]

My life is utter shit and I don't see it getting any better. I think about ctb everyday, I believe I will die when I'm ready hopefully. My question is do ya find comfort in ctb and if so how did you get there? I have crippling depression and anxiety and don't see my situation getting any better , but I'm scared to ctb and would love to find ways in which to ease that fear. Everytime I think of ctb , I think of it as a horror movie like hostel and it's also very lonely thing to do. Anyways peace to all in whatever you choose to do. :)

 

[Sorrygoodbye]

I go back and forth between being afraid and feeling like it's just something I need to do. I'm a broken person, and I'm not getting better. I don't have hope that it will all turn around for me in the future. I think about catching the bus more and more. It sounds so appealing to not hurt or suffer anymore.

If you are that afraid of ctb right now, then maybe it's not your time. There's no rush, right?