Story Cocoon forever

[dying]

I've been here for a while now. I like the way people don't tell you bullshit like "don't do it, you have so much to live for". I don't. I don't see myself living past a certain age and that age is closer than I realized. I'm a bit scared to die but can't live in the situation I'm in. Everything is ten times harder than it was before and I just wish I could be somewhere else as someone else.

I wish I could cocoon myself and bury myself underground forever being nothing. I'm scared of the act of suicide itself but not what's after. I just wish I could press a button and disappear somewhere safe, where I could be nothing.

just writing some stuff don't mind me :S

 

[faust]

You say you would like to be somewhere else as someone else and it is a very wise phrase.
But what if we actually never been ourselves? We did not fulfill our dreams, we did not live our own life?
And this is torturing me. If I go soon, does that mean that my life was vain?
It is sad because I have never lived, only existed.
No matter what your decision is, I wish you find anything that will make you feel alive.
Hugs

 

[134340]

I understand you 100% on wishing you could just press a button and disappear somewhere safe. Wouldn't it be nice if we could just erase ourselves like that? My biggest fear is the grief I'll be putting on my family when I go. If my existence could be erased and forgotten, I'd be gone in an instant. I hope you find peace somehow.