CO test

[Gonnerr]

Hi everybody, don't feel sorry for me being here , this is just life happening, living and dying. I did some test at home , i burned 2 rocks of charcoal in a 5 m3 small closet and i reached 373 ppm so if i do the math correctly , i need 53 charcoal rocks to reach 10000ppm.

I will do it in a nice spot in my tent because i love nature and mountains , i will try to find a nice spot with a great view to die , my tent is about 2,5 m3, half the size of the small closet i got at home so i think i could reach 20 000ppm which should killed me easily.

I will also use benzos 150mg and painkillers 30mg , that's all i can get for now. I think using that will weaken my body and carbon monoxide will do the rest.

What do you think about my plan ? Did i forget something ?

 

[HopelessAngel]

Hey friend. This is my chosen method too. I'll be doing mine in a small car. I don't know how much research you've done but I'll just say it's best to take your time with this one and make sure to get it right. I can share some of the threads/resources I've found over the week if you'd like.

The general rules of thumb I've found through my research is:
- make sure the space you've chosen is sealed off, tents can be especially tricky/deceiving, but not impossible.
- limit the likelihood of you being found prematurely as much as you can; leave a warning note to keep whoever finds you from being harmed.
- get good quality charcoal briquettes, and use a chimney starter to light them. Wait until they're ashy-grey in appearance or you'll struggle with smoke.
- make sure you don't burn a hole in your tent groundsheet.
- make sure you time your meds properly.

I'll be honest I'm not sure if the CO will scale 1:1 as you increase the number of bricks. I feel like 20000 PPM is extremely ambitious. Not saying it's not possible, I've just never seen anyone reach it in any of the tests I've looked at. I'm shooting for 6400+ which should be doable with 1kg of briquettes in a small car. I feel like if I use any more than that the heat could become a concern.

 

[Gonnerr]

Hi thanks for the reply. The first test i did at home with 2 charcoal briquettes in my closet , there was a lot of smoke and my eyes were burning do you think when i let it burn outside and bring it only when the fire is out and its only ash-grey my eyes wont burn ? I bought ski goggles just in case when i will do it.

I live in Canada so i will do it in a very remote place which is easy to find. That's the good thing about my country. The north is pretty much empty

I will do some test before actually doing it to be sure my tent wont burn and i will leave my co detector to see how much ppm i reach.

The thing i fear most is if i take the pills and suddently i feel to dizzy and cant enter the tent with the charcoal and seal it. Then i woke up outside the tent because the pills didnt kill me.

Or if i do the opposite, i enter the tent with the charcoal and i don't have time to take the pills because carbon monoxide knock me down then i woke up because the charcoal didnt kill me.

I want to be able to use 2 methods at the same time which has a better chance of working.

 

[HopelessAngel]

Yeah you want to avoid the smoke as much as you can. Going in the moment you light the briquettes isn't a recipe for success. From what I've read, using a chimney starter to start the briquettes and then leaving it outside for 30 - 60 minutes until ashy-grey helps alleviate a lot of the smoke. From there, you can transfer the coals to a bucket/grill/pan etc.

I'm not sure if it will completely prevent the eye discomfort, but it will definitely help. Goggles might not be a bad idea just in case, I've never actually thought about it, but I personally don't plan on using them unless in the moment I just find it to be completely unbearable.

Unless you have a high quality tester, the PPM is probably only going to show up to 1000. Also, I read something about how a lot of cheap testers aren't "live" and have a delayed effect, so the number might be significantly different than what the meter shows. I'm not sure how accurate that information is, but I thought I'd mention it because it was news to me when I read it and might be worth looking in to further.

I can understand wanting to do two methods at once, but I don't really know enough to say whether it makes sense or whether it just adds extra risk. In my case I don't have access to any prescription meds so I won't be taking that route anyways. I'll probably just be taking some Benadryl and Tylenol to make me sleepy, and hopefully combat the nausea/headache that some folks report during the attempt.

 

[Gonnerr]

I bought a carbon monoxide tester but only goes to 1000 , ive seen some that measure until 10000 ppm , i will buy it when its time.

Painkillers are very hard to get with a doctor , ive try but couldnt get more , they told me to use tylenol. I was only able to get 30mg. But for benzos, its very easy to get , i got them from 3 differents doctors , just had to tell them i was having a lot of anxiety. I like benzos , when i take 2mg , it slow my heartbeath to 50 beat per minutes which is great and i dont give a fuck about anything, nothing bothers me when im on benzos which will help me to not be too nervous when i will off myself. Benzos are a must when u off yourself , everybody should take them before offing themselves.

There is over the counter nausea pills you can buy at the pharmacy or amazon. I bought gaviscon from amazon, i will take them to not puke when i use the charcoal.

 

[HopelessAngel]

I told doctors in the past about my anxiety and they always just stuck me on SSRI's, even though I had been on multiple before and they didn't help. I know so many people who don't need medication who have it and so many people who need it but can't get it. I gave up on the healthcare system here in the States a long time ago.

Thanks for the tip about the nausea pills, I'll have to look in to that. At this point my biggest concern is that the nausea/headache will be unbearable. I guess I just need to hold on for about 15 - 20 minutes until I'm out though.

 

[Gonnerr]

I thought the meds where easy to get in the usa , SN is very easy to get i think in your country but i cant get it here in Canada , i would love to buy SN to have it beside me in case my attempts doesn't work , i would finish myself with SN.

Its hard to know unless you suceed , i think people doesnt react the same way. The body is hard to kill that's why we are 8 billions of us. The fucking will to live and the fear of dying. Without that it would be so much easier.

 

[HopelessAngel]

I've always struggled to get anything beyond anti-depressants. Maybe it's because I've always had either bad insurance or no insurance, or maybe I just got unlucky with my choice of doctors. I think a lot of it varies state to state though.

If for whatever reason CO doesn't work for me, I'll probably try SN. I'm not sure I'll be able to get all the right medications to do it the proper way though, which is why I went with CO.

 

[Gonnerr]

Yep for benzos i was lucky , 2 docs only prescribe me for 1 month each but the other one for 6 months and i think he will renew my prescription when im done. You just have to continue like me until you find the doctors who will prescribe you what u need , dont give up , u only need 1 doctor who prescribe for long term.

I take less everyday than my prescription so i can saved them for the day i will off myself.

Benzos really saved me for now, i sleep well on that and no side effects. But i still want to off myself because im 43 and ive had enough of life. The worst is coming as you grow old and i dont want to go thru the disease almost everybody develop when they grow old.

What's the difference between dying in my 40's or waiting later , i will die eventually anyway , i want to choose when i go and when im relatively healthy. I had a great life until now but it will only go downhill from now on.

 

[ExistHarm]

i am in canada as well, can you DM me?

 

[Gonnerr]

i am in canada as well, can you DM me?

Hi, sorry how do i do that , this is my first day here. There is a way we can talk privately?

 

[ExistHarm]

Hi, sorry how do i do that , this is my first day here. There is a way we can talk privately?

it is my first day too, i think we have to wait a few days to be able to DM. im not sure how we could talk privately otherwise, i could provide my discord or reddit and then delete the message?

 

[Gonnerr]

My reddit username is JohnQ2129 , u can add me

 

[ExistHarm]

My reddit username is JohnQ2129 , u can add me

thanks i will.