Tombadil
Member
- Nov 19, 2025
- 44
Now i am back here. Funny thing, i predicted last august i would have about a year left. Apparently the beginning of august i will go. It seems like i should have my stuff together then. I lived a time some very good months, without fear of having to get back into that system and without all the anxiety that came from living in this world as me. I basically did everything i had to do. I showed part of my family a way to maybe build a side hustle. I wont have the resources to finish it and im really tired now. I painted everything i had to paint, even if not as good as i would have wished.
When our dog died, the weeks before, he would go down to the garden and stare into darkness at night, as if something was calling him.
I can see and hear it now, its getting so loud now calling me and i can feel death creeping in, like claiming part of your soul first like a friend you have been eager to meet but never had time for in your life.
I can now proceed with my preparations and i hope i will find an even deeeper piece when i have everything together.
When our dog died, the weeks before, he would go down to the garden and stare into darkness at night, as if something was calling him.
I can see and hear it now, its getting so loud now calling me and i can feel death creeping in, like claiming part of your soul first like a friend you have been eager to meet but never had time for in your life.
I can now proceed with my preparations and i hope i will find an even deeeper piece when i have everything together.
