Venting Chronically underpaid introvert's nightmare

[ringo99]

It finally happened. 5 years of working from home since covid and now I'm being forced to come back to the office in a different city. I'm chronically introverted and socially awkward. So being around other people gives me severe anxiety which I had to work hard to hide. It made me stress eat to the point of obesity and jacked up my blood pressure to dangerous levels despite the fact that I'm still in my 30s. Reversing my obesity and blood pressure took a lot of effort and now it may be undone.

I spoke to my manager, who's actually a decent guy, to see if I could get an exemption but it's no go. It's out of his hands and being implemented company wide. I can't afford to pay rent at current rates while still saving a reasonable amount anymore since my salary barely went up during this time.

I can't deal with the stress of being around people after all this time. It's not like I was rude to my team or anything but I've been disconnected from them for so long I don't think I can communicate with them effectively. My financial problems and needing to deal with people face to face feels like a sign that I need to accelerate my plans to ctb. It's too much for me to deal with.

If you tolerated me this far thanks for reading my silly rant. I just had to get this off my chest.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I feel so bad for you. I'm in a sort of similar boat in that I've worked alone for several years but may have to work around others at least part of this year and I'm absolutely dreading it. I'm cruelly almost hoping things will align so I can kill myself and spare myself all of it.

 

[sanction]

I feel you. It sucks we were put on this planet just to suffer non-stop.

Always all about work, work, work.... enduring this, enduring that. Pay rent. Trying to afford rising cost of living. Forced to deal with people & situations. Health issues. Stress about the future, etc.

Just constantly one headache after another, with no end in sight.

Can't even catch a true break in this fucking hell

 

[ringo99]

I feel you. It sucks we were put on this planet just to suffer non-stop.

Always all about work, work, work.... enduring this, enduring that. Pay rent. Trying to afford rising cost of living. Forced to deal with people & situations. Health issues. Stress about the future, etc.

Just constantly one headache after another, with no end in sight.

Can't even catch a true break in this fucking hell

The worst part about all this is that it has nothing to do with employee productivity. The local real estate developers and city politicians have a profitable little racket charging companies leases for office space. Working from home threatens that so my company is being pressured to bring employees back and extend the lease or risk losing their tax subsidies. Fucking corrupt pos

 

[galaxid]

The worst part about all this is that it has nothing to do with employee productivity. The local real estate developers and city politicians have a profitable little racket charging companies leases for office space. Working from home threatens that so my company is being pressured to bring employees back and extend the lease or risk losing their tax subsidies. Fucking corrupt pos

The corruption is insane. And no company NEEDS to bend to the will of some other force. In an ideal world, companies would be more concerned about retaining the people they hired over 'tax subsidies'. But it's all about the bottom line, and the Number Must Go Up. Cutting costs means cutting salaries instead of, I don't know, making it worth everyone's while to stick around by cutting expenses instead. The Number Might Not Go Up, but at least they'd be treating their employees like people instead of warm bodies. And to do all this after the pandemic shut everything down for so long?? And to demand it so damn quickly?? There are people who've never worked in an office before being forced to go back... but its all for them sweet, sweet government allowances, amirite?

The injustice is maddening. I hope you can find a way through at least for a little while so you're not pressed for time. I don't blame you one bit because I've been sitting here trying to find a way to keep a job for years, now. I simply can't tolerate working anymore. If I had another 5 years worth of savings to get my shit together, maybe I'd feel better enough to work a real job again. But uh, no.

 

[idk3]

It finally happened. 5 years of working from home since covid and now I'm being forced to come back to the office in a different city. I'm chronically introverted and socially awkward. So being around other people gives me severe anxiety which I had to work hard to hide. It made me stress eat to the point of obesity and jacked up my blood pressure to dangerous levels despite the fact that I'm still in my 30s. Reversing my obesity and blood pressure took a lot of effort and now it may be undone.

I spoke to my manager, who's actually a decent guy, to see if I could get an exemption but it's no go. It's out of his hands and being implemented company wide. I can't afford to pay rent at current rates while still saving a reasonable amount anymore since my salary barely went up during this time.

I can't deal with the stress of being around people after all this time. It's not like I was rude to my team or anything but I've been disconnected from them for so long I don't think I can communicate with them effectively. My financial problems and needing to deal with people face to face feels like a sign that I need to accelerate my plans to ctb. It's too much for me to deal with.

If you tolerated me this far thanks for reading my silly rant. I just had to get this off my chest.

Sorry to hear this, I know all to well about social anxiety

Have you considered seeing a Doctor/Therapist to see if a note from them could get you exempt from going in to the office, so you can continue working from home? Maybe if your company understood the true severity they'd be cool with it.

 

[sanction]

Sorry to hear this, I know all to well about social anxiety

Have you considered seeing a Doctor/Therapist to see if a note from them could get you exempt from going in to the office, so you can continue working from home? Maybe if your company understood the true severity they'd be cool with it.

Probably difficult, but worth a try

In these big corporations, employees are easily replaceable. Also may make the other employees feel its not fair that they have to come into office, then may start a trend of other employees also trying or faking conditions, so can also work at home, because who wouldn't want that luxury?

But anyways, hopefully I'm wrong. Feel free to give it a try anyways. All the best

 

[Someonewhotypes]

It's terrible to adjust to in office work again after so long working from home. But what about looking for a new job that allows you to work from home? I suppose that's hard to get but trying wouldn't cost anything

 

[ringo99]

Sorry to hear this, I know all to well about social anxiety

Have you considered seeing a Doctor/Therapist to see if a note from them could get you exempt from going in to the office, so you can continue working from home? Maybe if your company understood the true severity they'd be cool with it.

The problem is that I work in India. The competition is insane. There are an estimated 5,000 applicants for each job role here. It'd be easier and cheaper to replace me despite my seniority.

It's terrible to adjust to in office work again after so long working from home. But what about looking for a new job that allows you to work from home? I suppose that's hard to get but trying wouldn't cost anything

I've been trying for a couple of years but almost every role that I qualify for has transitioned to hybrid or full time. I could look at startups but they're very risky and prone to fail with little warning.

 

[ididnotconsent]

I feel you. It sucks we were put on this planet just to suffer non-stop.

Always all about work, work, work.... enduring this, enduring that. Pay rent. Trying to afford rising cost of living. Forced to deal with people & situations. Health issues. Stress about the future, etc.

Just constantly one headache after another, with no end in sight.

Can't even catch a true break in this fucking hell

If it's not one thing, it's another.

I honestly had maybe like 7 okayish years in this shithole from ages 5-12 when my childhood wonder and enthusiasm were at their peak.

Not to say there weren't problems then cause there definitely fucking were, but i generally lived in the moment.

I try to be grateful though. Many were born into chatel slavery and lived and died that way. Then their descendants lived another hundred years under hell until they just started being granted basic human rights. Keep in mind, this is just the American slave trade. Yet people just kept on breeding.

So much Separates us as human beings. Race, gender, age, class, etc. We can't even get along cause all we focus on is our differences.

This experiment truly sucks balls.

 

[sanction]

If it's not one thing, it's another.

I honestly had maybe like 7 okayish years in this shithole from ages 5-12 when my childhood wonder and enthusiasm were at their peak.

Not to say there weren't problems then cause there definitely fucking were, but i generally lived in the moment.

I try to be grateful though. Many were born into chatel slavery and lived and died that way. Then their descendants lived another hundred years under hell until they just started being granted basic human rights.

So much Separates us as human beings. Race, gender, age, class, etc. We can't even get along cause all we focus on is our differences.

This experiment truly sucks balls.

This world is a hell and nightmare for both humans and animals

The super small percent of humans that "have it good", simply doesn't make up for all the other bullshit at all. Not even close

The best is for this world to just end and delete itself, to free all living creatures from further unnecessary suffering

Too bad this will never ever happen. Even if it does some day, like many many centuries later, it will simply be way too late. Simply way too much suffering has already took place, nothing will ever make up for it.

Welcome to hell