Discussion Chronic incurable physical illnes as a reason for CTB

[nbn]

I am 26 years old and I have a chronic,recurrent incurable illness which is not terminal. The only way to treat the disease is to do a big surgery with 2 to 3 months of painful, exhaustive, depressive,post operative time ,but have a relapse rate of 30 to 40% even after numerous surgeries. One should live with this disease worrying everyday about the relapse. One cannot happily play the games, and ur physical activity should be completely restricted. I also have some other abnormalities that cannot be cured, and the incidence of these two diseases is about 1 in 50000. This is the reason I want to die.

Is anyone here CTBing because of the chronic physical illness

 

[Thereisnothing]

I have many chronic and life limiting illnesses, started aged 10 and then gradually things got worse and over years got more and more wrong. I am now 45 and getting weaker and worse by the day. I dont live, just exist really. In so much pain, drugs I have to take over time have caused me more nasty problems, symptoms of everything so hard to deal with.
I cope alone. Only two people who ever cared or loved me have now gone, lost my mother in 2012, she was my angel, lost my father before Christmas, second he died, I died too, yet still here. After mum died he and I only had one another and we loved one another so much and were each others rock I have noone at all to help me and its scary when so ill, no help from friends, no family, no social care. Been ill most my life means had no career, little social life. Social Life I did have ended up meeting people who ended up hurting me. Have had a real rough ride. Not sure why I am still here. I wish to go to peace yet too scared to do it and have no methods can use as so ill..............keep hoping will go peacefully in my sleep and my illnesses will take me soon. If I got much iller I wont be able to look after myself at all and that is so frightening.

You are in a very sad place and I can understand fully how you must be feeling, there seems no answers or ways out. If you dont have this big surgery what is the outlook?

 

[Elbarado]

i have 1:100.000 and my muscles disappear more and more. just pain and i will die horrible

 

[nbn]

i have 1:100.000 and my muscles disappear more and more. just pain and i will die horrible

I can understand ur pain. But, it will eventually kill u,if that is what u are hoping for. For me, it wont kill me, and it wont allow me to live a normal life.

I have many chronic and life limiting illnesses, started aged 10 and then gradually things got worse and over years got more and more wrong. I am now 45 and getting weaker and worse by the day. I dont live, just exist really. In so much pain, drugs I have to take over time have caused me more nasty problems, symptoms of everything so hard to deal with.
I cope alone. Only two people who ever cared or loved me have now gone, lost my mother in 2012, she was my angel, lost my father before Christmas, second he died, I died too, yet still here. After mum died he and I only had one another and we loved one another so much and were each others rock I have noone at all to help me and its scary when so ill, no help from friends, no family, no social care. Been ill most my life means had no career, little social life. Social Life I did have ended up meeting people who ended up hurting me. Have had a real rough ride. Not sure why I am still here. I wish to go to peace yet too scared to do it and have no methods can use as so ill..............keep hoping will go peacefully in my sleep and my illnesses will take me soon. If I got much iller I wont be able to look after myself at all and that is so frightening.

You are in a very sad place and I can understand fully how you must be feeling, there seems no answers or ways out. If you dont have this big surgery what is the outlook?

The disease may get bigger or it may stay in this condition. I dont know why the doctors are not able to find minimal surgery for this condition.

 

[nbn]

I have many chronic and life limiting illnesses, started aged 10 and then gradually things got worse and over years got more and more wrong. I am now 45 and getting weaker and worse by the day. I dont live, just exist really. In so much pain, drugs I have to take over time have caused me more nasty problems, symptoms of everything so hard to deal with.
I cope alone. Only two people who ever cared or loved me have now gone, lost my mother in 2012, she was my angel, lost my father before Christmas, second he died, I died too, yet still here. After mum died he and I only had one another and we loved one another so much and were each others rock I have noone at all to help me and its scary when so ill, no help from friends, no family, no social care. Been ill most my life means had no career, little social life. Social Life I did have ended up meeting people who ended up hurting me. Have had a real rough ride. Not sure why I am still here. I wish to go to peace yet too scared to do it and have no methods can use as so ill..............keep hoping will go peacefully in my sleep and my illnesses will take me soon. If I got much iller I wont be able to look after myself at all and that is so frightening.

You are in a very sad place and I can understand fully how you must be feeling, there seems no answers or ways out. If you dont have this big surgery what is the outlook?

I was happy until 2015. I thought that god had given me almost all the things that are needed to live happily. I used to think why people commit suicide. But, from the last five years, I am thinking that I am one of those few unlucky persons

 

[Elbarado]

I can understand ur pain. But, it will eventually kill u,if that is what u are hoping for. For me, it wont kill me, and it wont allow me to live a normal life.

The disease may get bigger or it may stay in this condition. I dont know why the doctors are not able to find minimal surgery for this condition.

i dont want to die. i loved my life till 1 year ago, but now it is hell and i get no help and there is no cure.
Its ALS

 

[yetme]

me too. loved my life, but now I'm dying of antibiotic-resistant bacteria wich slowly eating me alive. the pain is terrifying. every day is an agony. fuck this universe!

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Is anyone here CTBing because of the chronic physical illness

Yeah... and the complications arising from it, romantic/social/career/etc.

 

[Ghost2211]

Yes, I have transient neurological symptoms that are very similar what seniors end up living with every day. Though that is only one of the reasons it removes any real independenc.

 

[Halo13]

Yes, I have a progressive incurable disease that surgery won't help. Spent years going to doctors saying they didn't know what it was - even was told "maybe it's all in your head." Finally had a decent doctor send me off to specialists and order countless tests and there it was. It infuriated me to no end I was suffering for years but I also felt validated getting the diagnosises because I knew something serious was going on. Now, they can "only treat the pain" while I slowly but surely get worse. It feels like being on my death bed but death doesn't come. I'm sick of all the doctors, sick of no options and it is totally consuming - I have no social life whatsoever, spend most of my time in bed.

Even before the diagnosis, I had been trying to ctb anyways so it's just adding on to the list of reasons why.

 

[HelpPlease]

Yes brain damage and nuero issues from psych drugs

 

[LastRide]

I have two very rare diseases - Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome type 3 (hyper-mobility of collagen tissue since I'm missing a gene to correctly produce it), so I have multiple chronic fractures and joint sprains which do not heal and are causing chronic pain in my entire body. I've had that ever since I was a child, don't know what the ration is of people having it. And as if it wasn't enough I have been diagnosed this year with chronic adrenal failure (Addison's disease). The disease as such is not lethal but you have to be on medication constantly and if you forget to take it or you have additional physical stress (flu, accident, or even diarrhea) you can go into what's called "adrenal crisis" which is life-threatening....Addison's disease is already quite rare (I think 50 in 1 million or so), but only 5% of people who have it get these crises regularly and I get them more and more frequently every month....I wish people would just leave me alone and let me die if I go into adrenal crisis (even though it's not a nice way to go, it feels awful, but I don't care as long as death was the result), but I keep on getting dragged to the emergency ward by well-meaning people and being resucitated....can they not just fucking leave me to die???? So CTB seems the only option left.