As you know, censorship around the world has been ramping up at an alarming pace. The UK and OFCOM has singled out this community and have been focusing its censorship efforts here. It takes a good amount of resources to maintain the infrastructure for our community and to resist this censorship. We would appreciate any and all donations.
Exactly, the eternal problem of the damned lack of moneyabsolutely, the question is... how can u succeed in leaving and living by yourself?
That's why I think that committing suicide has to be the last card in the deck, the last option, because we can still try crazy ideas, or escape to other places, try a different life. To survive we only need water, a little food and somewhere to protect ourselves from the cold, until little by little we can improve the situation and manage to be happy somewhere else, maybe we will have less comfort, but more happiness, at least that's what I want to believe.
I agree, and this is what I'm doing now, I guess. I left my country and moved to another continent because I knew I couldn't stay without the love of my life. Now we are both on different continents. I knew this would be the only way to focus, to start over, and survive. Before I left, I became actively suicidal, but just too late to get the means and commit to ctb. Now, I find the feelings followed me to this new place. Some days are better than others, but for most it's difficult to focus, to start from scratch, with the possibility of money running out. The blackness is hard to fight, but I manage to get out there and try my best in this job hunt to survive. A roller coaster ride of hope, despair, love, nothingness, life, death, reality and complete disbelief at times to be in a foreign world.
Thank you so much for your kind words, it is almost like medicine to read those words because they are kind and inspiring. I am looking forward to going on an adventure to start over somewhere else, but I can't find a way to earn some money. I only have 0.60 cents, I have tried to hitchhike for 4 hours but not a single car has stopped and I have had to walk back to my parents' house. They laugh at me, insult me, and tell me that their money is for them and that they are not going to help me try to go somewhere else because according to them it is a waste of money. I am living in the middle of nowhere, I have no income, no bicycle, no public transport. No matter how hard I look for work, no one wants to give me a chance and I am trying to find some way to earn money thanks to the internet but at the moment I can't think of what to try. Today I am tremendously depressed and frustrated, but I will never give up until I find a way to go somewhere else, away from these toxic parents who only humiliate and insult me.
